There are so many people in this world who i feel have the bad case of the Zombee's.. What i mean by this , is that they have chosen to live amongst the living dead. I too once chose that path of life. The choice to not feel, so that you cannot hurt, is an easy way to survive. By hiding from your past , so as to avoid potential pain from both the present and future, classifies you as this type person. Those who choose drugs , Drinking, or anything else as a crutch not to feel.. have chosen there path to walk this world aimlessly.. They will never allow themselves to be loved or love another for fear of pain.. This self instilled fear, will shut down all your senses.. it will cause self destruction, till one day your desire to live will diminish. Choose the right path for yourself.. Allow yourself to feel the pain, work through it and gain strength!!! Gain back yourself . You will no longer deny yourself pain from fear... you will learn more about yourself. You will let yourself recieve lifes fruit in abundance. You will learn a confidence, not a false confidence built from denial. You will back your desire and will to live. You will learn to love yourself and then learn how to love others.. and unexpectedly let others love you. This reward , that you owe to yourself, will help you survive.. Stop the lies to yourself.. it will hurt you and eventually others. Enjoy the future you give to yourself, because no one else will! Start with you. We all have pain we locked up inside.. when something comes up that reminds us of it , our normal reaction is to react. If we dealt with it head on ... yes it hurts, yes it sucks... but the end result is we live on.. we don't die inside. We stay human. We wont deny ourselves our right to feel, our God given breath of life! Our right to feel and to love or be loved. We will then find true Happiness in lifes rewards. No nothing comes easy, you can do this , you will overcome.. you will become sensitive towards your own needs and desires allowing you also to be sensitive of others, by not becoming overwhelmed by there needs plans or dreams. I did, i will, and i will continue to live, to love, to now strive everyday towards a most common goal.. ( not only to love and be loved, but to love myself enough to let it happen!...). A heart is a terrible thing to waist!! Signed ... The ex-living dead!! Tony
