RIP JenniferChristine's blog: "The cowboy"

I am starting a new chapter in my relationship. It feels wierd but I love him. If I never would of went to that bar I never would of kissed him. And we would not be where we are today. I know it sounds funny but he makes me happy. And though he kept a secret from me at first and I understand why. I am anxious about getting married to someone who is going to be in the Army. But I do not see that.. I see his loving personality and his smile. I look forward to spending my life with him

I am looking at me and I love my soon to be husband. Every waking moment I am alive I love him more and more....But I feel lost. I wonder why he wants me? When I feel like I am crazy? But i love him for every ounce of me and inch of me. He came in at a bad time a stuck by me every inch of the way. So he dropped the bomb that he is leaving for basic sometime.... and it tore me apart because I love him and although i have faith he will make it and be all he can be. I fear he will be a changed man and not want me. But i know he loves me. And it makes it hard cause we just got engaged....

Well, I have been with my man for sometime now...We are really in love and it is amazing..... I really love him. We are happy together. And for the first time I can actually say I am in love. I honsetly believe with all of my heart that there is nobody else for me but him. And with every waking moment I love him more. I love just looking into his eyes and smiling. He is simply priceless. And waking up to him holding me tight. He is one of a kind and for that I know he is all mine. I trust him and cannot wait to see him again.... I love you baby.... WARNING: For all you guys who are adding me to get a piece of ass well this ass is taken by a southern boy so back the fuck off.....And I will not fuck or flirt with you! I am happier than a tornado in a trailer park.

Okay so my relationship feels like it is from heaven....lol......I have maybe three suit cases packed and I am moving to Missouri....Wow like a big step for me. I am really happy...But I am starting to miss my boyfriend ALOT! I was crying while packing yesterday and today I did it too... And I do not know how to explain it but I am happy...And i just hope he is happy like i am.....

I know I should of this and that while I was in VA but at least I got to kiss you. I miss you a lot and as these feelings grow stronger I yearn for you're touch again. I start to feel bad about not approaching you. ANd now I am here wishing you were here with me. All I have is you're picture... I try not cry when I hear certain songs that make me think of you. I love you and I wish I was there. Shit I am crying as I write this...

I never thought I could care about someone sooo much and there be this connection. I have this man in my life now. Very different from the others and I am not sure how to handle him. He treats me like a Queen sometimes and knows what I like. I am nervous about him. Just talking to him has it's ways. And he has been there for me. I am happy to know I put a smile on his face after a long day. I am not use to someone being so into me and caring like he does. I hope it works...I know I can depend on him kicking someones ass if they hurt me. And I know I have hurt him before but I really care for him and will not hurt him...