Sitting here alone
Watching Mother Nature attempt to snow
I thought I should at least write something
Thoughts of my big brother
My kids
My grandkids
My life in general
Most of it I am thankful for
Not being able to share it with someone
Is getting harder and harder to face
I keep a secret in the back of my head
Hoping for that one Christmas miracle
The one meant for me
Again it passes with only disappointment
This year has passed with a lot of pain
My faith in myself and others has been waned
The new year is fast approaching
Midnight is yet another star
A black star in Silvers world
It's so quiet right now
Almost as if Christmas never existed
Wow
It's worse than I thought
