It's sometimes difficult to decide if starting my day off, emotionally in the shtcan, is good or bad. One view could be, I have set the mood for the entire day, ruined another day in my life. Another view, at least I got this out of the way for today and I can go on from here. The problem with the latter theory is, I feel like a fly with a pin stabbed through me, pinning me to a corkboard, for observation. I'm not going anywhere. Life sucks and then it sucks some more. I'll get over this mood. I always do. I have a great future planned and I will accept no other result. I just have times, when I have to "adjust the position" of my heavy burden, that I reflect on my situation. By far, not the best part of my day, yet, a necessary function to keep the straps of the burden from cutting too deep.
