I have had many loves in my life,yet I have never really loved.I went through themotions,the feelings,and yet never gain a smile.That special touch,that care,the sharing or feeling of really being needed.You know the kind that makes you smile,or makes you cry all at the same time.I went through the dialy life,thinking there could be,someone out there for me.to give me what I seek.I have went through many miles,travel many roads,I have settle down,been a wife,a mother,and never a lover.I have cook the meals,wash the clothes,and feel what I was suppose to,but never felt at all.I have shared my life,and yet kept me as a whole in the dark.As I set here among the clouds.Feeling empty,a lost.To share the world what time I have left.with you ,was and is my dreams.But in my dreams,I am lost,in my soul,I am sadden,and the only emotions is the need to be there with you.It is a pain that doesnt go away.It wakes me up,devours my senses.aches my ever need.Fills my heart,and spit me out and throws me away.It is how I feel when I am not with you.It is my innerself clutching my needs.I say time,will tell,time will give forth all,but right now,time sucks.So tonight when I lay across the floor on my blanket and pillow.I wish in time,this pain in my heart will ease,and the one person I love the most is laying beside me.
