well, tonight, i danced around a lot, to techno... yay for techno... and worked out some, well, a while actually... i probably should some more... my poor fat ass is so out of shape it's not even funny... poor me... it's not even funny.... I am like, hello?!?!?! I used to be so tiny and cute, what the fuck happened to me?!?!?! OOOHHH right i had kids that is what happened... i got fat when i had the kids, it sucks ass... i mean like oh my god... hello? I used to be so pretty... and now i feel like a fat heffer... MOO baby MOO.... i mean seriously... how does this shit happen??? And why the fuck wont it go away?!?!?!? MMMOOO....
Anyways~ my daughter did my hair tonight... it's in a ponytail with a bunch of little hair deals in it... it looks, so.... WONDERFUL... *lol* i look ilke a 4 year old did my hair *lol* gotta luv kids!!!
Anyways, onto my scott section... he is so awesome!!! i love chatting with him... he makes me happy! He's actually NICE to me, and talks to me about OTHER stuff than wanting to fuck me!!! SHOCKING!!!!!! most men, it's like, just wanna talk about fucking me or wanna fuck me or something... but he is so sweet... i mean, ya he wants to fuck me, but he is so sweet and nice and just chats with me~ and listens to me, and cares about me, and it's awesome!!! I'm glad i've gotten to know him.... like i said, if we were closer....
*sigh*
But, anyways, as usual dennis is being a toal fucking asshole, i get so sick of dealing with his bullshit... i mean WTF?!?! i cannot wait to move out, get away from him, and start my whole life over....
Sometimes, i question how I got myself into this position.... it's just so fucked up.... i just want to be loved, and cared for, i want romance, and all those things you see in movies, like flowers for no reason, and rose petal pathways, and all that sweet shit...
what do i get? dennis' bullshti day in and day out... lesson here, don't get married just cuz you're pregnant....
