sweetlilpea74's blog: "sweet_lil_pea74"

this immoralized hell I cannot escape, forced to believe there, I die laying awake. every option an open door is now locked, I wanted away out there is no more bound by the hole that severs my life, dead in bed I lay awake eyes glued to the ceiling for I fear, day break. another piece of torture, another piece of me, given and taken, as the pain in my heart bleeds. nothings there everything is lost, turn your backs Im not worth the cost. smother me with things that you think are right. take away my life, and hold me real tight. nothing I wish for will ever come true. forced to be someone else I shall forever be blue.

my eyes cant cry anymore tears, you have broke me my heart, my inner being. im just driffting in life as a leaf drifts threw the sky, i dont no how much longer i can go, living this lie not wanting to be here not wanted by anyone just hoping to live the next day to see the sun rise once again and start this same lie over again.............

You my love, is what makes me thrive For when our hearts meet I know we are alive We become eachother Unparted through death The touch of your hand An angel's breath

Sleepless nights are not so bad The world is still going 'round, And if you stop to listen Then you will hear all its magical sounds. The sound of the wind a blowing The surf upon the shore, The grandfather clock chiming Your loved one as he walks in the door.(if u had one) Peacefulness, the quiet, Time to think or feel, Nighttime is the best time Quiet moments that you can steal. So you see, insomnia's not so bad I can sit and write a poem, In the peacefulness of the night At long last alone

My mind floats freely like a long, dusty road leading back to nowhere. My head tilted back I study the sky looking for the answer I found once in your eyes. With an icy warmth I traced the small smile that fleetingly touched your lips and a small part of the love I have for you burns my fingertips. The moon's quiet glow shines light past my eyes when I can realize the way the night ends. Darkness from this moment is gone forever And you? You have just silently whispered good-bye

I go down the ladder into the depths of my soul pull up a shadow and let it all go The darkness surrounding is peaceful and freeing I cry for my soul what am I feeling No one can hurt me not even the ones from hell only I know the way and I will never tell As I go up the ladder and feel the sun again I know in my heart that I will heal in the pain

Waking up every morning without you by my side, Leaves me in a daze, wondering if you feel the same, Were miles apart, missing each other like crazy, Counting down the days till were in each others arms, When the day finally comes, it’s filled with hugs and kisses, You complete me babe, I’ll love you always and forever

Surrender By SLAYER (C) 6/18/07 Trust Me with your heart. Place it in My hands, To crush or caress. Trust that I will not hurt you. Give it to Me because you desire Me to possess it, Not because it is My will. Trust Me with your mind. Place it in My hands, also, To destroy or reshape. Trust Me to mold it according to your needs Not simply to suit My own purposes. Trust Me with your body. It too, place in My hands. Mine, to batter or protect. Trust Me to keep you safe And to provide for you that which is needed to ensure your happiness. Trust Me with your very soul. Place it in My hands, as well. Lay it bare before Me, vulnerable to My will. Trust that I will guide you safely through the darkness protecting your interests at all times, regardless of My desires. Above all, trust Me with your complete and total surrender. Trust that I will honor and cherish your submission to Me. Trust that I will not abuse this gift That you so lovingly give to Me.