Suzy's blog: "Suzy's own little world"

ok i have been trying to be strong about this all. first off for you guys that dont know what happend... i was engaged. well it was actually about the 5th time someone asked me to marry them. i know my life is fucked up right lol. anyways he was another asshole hiding in sheeps clothing. i gave him my everything. i would have done anything to make him happy. but all i got in return from him was a few nice happy days that i still treasure but alot of pain and heartache. he cheated, lied, abused me, and used me. right now as far as i know he is still in prison but he was suppose to get out the day before my birthday, dec 17th. i am a bundle of nerves because i dont know if he is going to come back after me. i love him alot. but he came after me one night and i called 911 and got him thrown first in jail then prison. who knows where he is. his whore the little 18 year old girl that he was fucked on the side was suppose to pick him up from the bus station after he got out maybe she will keep him away from me. i dont want to see him. my heart cant hurt anymore. i had afew very close friends that helped me try to get over him. one of the hardest parts of the whole thing was that because of that one night that i called 911 and all the court dates and shit i miscarried. the only truely pure thing to come from him. i would have given birth in feb. im still getting over that. you never truely get over it you just slowly let the hurt go away. its also my first christmas alone in over 5 years. i dont know what to do. i turned to a few good friends. they save me daily from myself. i also turned to a guy on here. he made me smile again. made me forget. made me feel there are good guys out there. but alas he stopped talking to me when my naughty pics went away. i dont want just sex anymore.i want love again. i deserve love again. real love. not that fake shit. i dont know where i will find that. who knows it might find me. but i have alot of walls up now. alot of baggage. maybe they wont notice because im great in bed right? um....dont thinks so. well maybe there will be one that will find me truely beautiful and enjoy my crazy soap opera life. who knows. if your a real friend reply with some kinds of words of encouragement or friend love. i could use them right about now. thanks for reading this everyone!

i was brave enough to post my answers in here are you brave enough to do that same? 1. Are you a virgin? If so, what are you waiting for? hell no!!! > 2. How old were you when you lost your virginity? umm 22 > 3. Sexual preference? depends on my mood > 4. How many different words can you think of for sex? if i sat here for a few minutes i could thik of at the very least 50 > 5.What are your turn ons? girl on girl porn, getting my clit played with, getting my nipples licked sucked and bitten and getting sexually teased. > 6. Do you masturbate? If so, how often? fuck ya i do and usually everyday. > 7. How many drinks before your beer goggles on? im a light weight here i get drunk fast. maybe 2 or three good mixed drinks. > 8. What's you definition for foreplay? anything that gets you or your partner wet or hard. oral, a little hand action, licking sucking biting everything before you stick your cock in lol > 9. How many people have you slept with? 4 every single one has come back to fuck again. so i just recylce lol > 10. Are you lying? (men, divide # by 2, women multiply by 2) nope i never lie about sex. 4 men. cliff, nick, tristan, and aaron > 11. What's the biggest age difference? well i was 23 and nick was 20 i like them a little younger > 12. Were any of them your friends? yup most of my guys come from being friends first. > 13. Can you name the people you've slept with in chronological order? lol just did that. did you miss question 10? > 14. Do you remember all their names? yes just said them. cliff(graphic designer), nick(marine),tristan (excon whos back in prison lol), and aaron (navy Corpsman) see i can even remember what they all did for a living lol > 15. Who was your best lay? damn thats a hard one but i think aaron beat them all out in pure wild fucking. read the blog you will understand more > Most interesting place to have sex? did you miss a number? > 16. Had a threesome? not yet was suppose to but the guy was stupid and told his girl i was better so she didnt want to anymore fucking men. > > 17. Been with someone of the same sex? not yet but will soon just have to find the right one. > 18. Had sex with someone in the room? in the next room. she heard the whole thing. done that shit more than once lol > > 19. Film yourself having sex? lol um filmed myself playing but no no fucking > 20. Been rimmed? i had aguy lick my ass when he was going down on me yes > > 21. Rimmed anyone? yes when i suck dick i sometimes do that if he wants it > 22. Give or receive oral sex in a moving vehicle? gave lol im naughty > 23. Stripped for anyone? yup > 24. Lied to anyone to get laid? not that i can remember but i might have > 25. Been called a slut? all the time. woman hate me jealous bitches. > 26. Tied anyone up or been tied up? both and loved every second of both of them > 27. Used or own any sex toys? i worked at a sex store a few years back i got 40% off anything in the store. need less to say i have a whole fun trunk lol > 28. Had a coyote ugly night? nope dont fuck random people > > 29. Faked an orgasm? yup didnt start having them till i met tristan my exfiance. he got me started and aaron kept me going. 4 times in 20minutes i love that shit lol. > 30. Had sex with more than one person in one night? nope not a total slut > 31. Been caught having sex? yup told you i was loud > 32. Spit or swallow? neither cum in me please thats my fav. > > 33. Do you like getting spanked? read the name and you tell me > 34. Are you more dominant or submissive? both im a switch i was a Mistress for a while had a few very nice male slaves but met the ex and he wasnt into it so stopped it all together. > 35. On the rate of 1-10 (10 being the easiest) how easy are you? 9 i will talk to you about sex show naughty pics watch porno with you tease you flirt with you help you get off but its very hard to get me to fuck you. > 36. Meaningless sex or in love? i have had both. two of the 4 men i was engaged to. the other two are my good friends who decieded to fuck.aka fuck buddies. with who? nick and aaron are my fuck buddies. cliff(over 3 years) and tristan (8 months) were loves > 37. Do you like Golden Showers? um no thank you > 38. Do you like to be called names during sex? What are they? yes i do sometimes but only when im getting it rough and spanked i like to be called a dirty whore, slut, make me say your name, make me tell you i only want your dick shit like that > > 39. Loud or quiet? loud way to fucking loud > > 40. Have you ever faked an orgasm? see question 29 you already asked this one dumbass lol > > 41. Would u ever sleep with the person that sent this to u? i forget who i got it from > 42. Who sent this to you? see above > 43. Have you slept with any of the people you're going to send this to? yup aaron aka bigdick4u8701 > 44. Is there anyone that you know that you want to sleep with? fuck ya. If so who? damm way to many men on my friends list right now that if given the chance i would rock there world. mmm mmm mmmm Marines lol ok some arent Marines but mot are lol

who fucks better the Marine or the Sailor? ...stories of my two best sexual experinces Current mood: horny ok so just a warning again if you dont want to hear details about my sex life and how freaky i am dont read. you will find out way to much info about me if you do. but if you want to keep reading rock on. im just here to vent and compair a few things. and i just have to write about my night last night because it fucking rocked. im going to put my fav time i was with the Marine and then what happened last night that just blew my mind.ok here goes.... ok so my craziest and best sex romp was with the Marine one night. Well i guess its now my second best. Anyways. ok so he was drunk when i came over and he had whiskey dick. I always thought that was a bad thing and that they could not get hard. but in his case it took him forever to cum he stayed hard the whole time. i think we started out at about midnight or one am. we were finishing up at i believe 7 am when we heard his brother getting ready for school. ya that just happened to be about the time i was moaning very loud. what i loved about this time was how crazy it was. i could not tell you how many different positions i was thrown into. one second i was on my back the next he flipped me over and he was hitting it doggy style. i was so much fun. i still masterbate to that night. at one point of the night he was fucking me doggy style one of my favorites and he was a little hot and crazy and bit my neck and down my spinal cord. i had bruises from them but they felt so good. when he got down my back he actually shocked me and bit my ass hard lol .i was like damn. he was growling which is a HUGE turn on. it was so crazy. i didnt know what was going to happen next. thank god im pretty flexable because he threw my legs and me all over the place lol. mmm mmm mmm still thinking back gets me all excited again. believe me that boy can fuck like nobodys business. and he has a very nice cock to go along with the great skills. ok so that was my fav all time romp till just last night. and heres that story. ok last night a Sailor i knew came over. well actually i went and picked him up. car broke down. anyways i told him he owed me big because i hate driving places i dont know expecially at night. well he payed me back 4 times lol more on that one later. so he came over. the pay back i wanted was a massage. anyone that knows me knows i got rear ended and my truck was totalled and since then i have lower back pain. well he is very good at massages. his hands feel so great when he massages me. he got out the massage oil and had me lay face down on the couch with my shirt up. well he started at the lower back and fucking worked all the kinks out. of couse massages turn me on alot. i tend to moan alot when i get one. he moved up and unbuttoned my bra and massaged the upper part. he was sitting on my legs and started to kiss and lick my back and then went for my neck. omg him kissing my neck and that night massage really started to work me up. he leaned over and kissed me and it was kinda on after that he wanted to play with my toy and fuck me on the couch again and have the porn in the backround. i really wanted it in my bedroom. so we headed there and we stripped off our clothes and got into bed. i let him use my toy on me. damn i love that damn vib egg lol he teased my clit with it and then inserted it into my pussy and started to lick my clit. he also rubbed my clit with is fingers shit it was a ton of great feelings. i cant take to much of the bullet because its very strong. i asked if he could take it out. it was kinda far in my after all the fun and when it came out it felt so funny. i told him it was his turn. made him lay back and i went down on him. i was sucking his cock and i have to say i really kinda like it. his is a bigger cock and alot harder to deep throat but i can take it. he pulled my head down on his dick till it was all in and held it there for a minute. i had to push away because of his size my airway was blocked lol. damn big dick lol. i kept teasing and licking his cock. and i felt him moving so i looked up and he had a pillow covering his face. i was like what the fuck. i asked why and he said dont stop. later i found out it was because he was screaming lol he tried to cover it up. i totally wish he wouldnt. i love to hear a guy moan, scream, or growl expecially when i am doing that. makes me feel like i am doing a great job and my goal is to make him scream. i kept playing and sucking his dick till i think he couldnt take much more and told me to get on top. i came up and i started to ride his dick. omg i was riding it and pushing down on his and he would push up and he got it so deep it made my arms shake and i almost fell on him lol. my arms almost gave out.he was hitting my g spot. omg i have had other guys hit it a few times but him just about ever time he tired to make it his goal to hit it it seemed. shit we were really fucking hard and good. he said you wanna feel it hit that spot doggy style and i said hell ya. we switched and he was fucking me doggy. its one of my fav. he got really into it because i kept getting louder and louder. he was fucking me hard now and started to smack my ass. god i love that. then he started to pull my hair and made my back arch and held my head up. he was really getting rough which i was really into at that time.(he apolagised later for being so rough i guess when he looked down and he had my hair in his hand he knew he was a little two rough) then the dirty talk started. which i usually dont like. but he just kept hitting that g-spot and i was jello. anything he wanted was his. he called me a dirty little slut telling me i was his slave and told me how naughty i was. made me tell him whos dick i like the best and made me tell him how great it was and shit like that. it was so fucking hot. all this time he had a hold of my head by my hair. he would still smack my ass. it was starting to sting but in a good way. i was so fucking hot. i was getting light headed and towards the end i felt like i was going to pass out from all the pleasure coarsing threw my body. see when i really get into sex and the way to tell if it was good or not is if i get light headed and dizzy then you know you fucked me good lol. i have never come to the point of almost passing out except with him last night. he knows as well as everyone that i have ever talked to about sex that i will not let a guy cum in my mouth. i wont let him cum on my face or anything like that. well while he had me by the hair and fucking me so good he asked where i wanted him to cum. he knows my fav place is deep inside me so of course thats what i said. well thats not what he wanted. he said no im going to cum in your mouth. i fought it but everytime i tried to object he smacked my ass and rammed his cock up to my g spot again and i couldnt talk. this went out for i would say like 5-10 minutes. he kept telling me he was going to cum in my mouth and i was going to suck his dick till he did. well i tried to fight it but me saying no just got me fucked deeper and my ass smacked and hair pulled again lol it was so fucking great. well he started to say he was going to cum and i felt him come out of me and i dont know what the hell made me do it but i turned aroud and started to suck his dick. he came a bit before i started but he finished the rest in my mouth. i was sucking his dick clean. i made sure every bit was cleaned off him. it was a mixture of mine and his cum. i guess it was the rough sex and g spot and light headedness that made me turn around and do it. ok so after that insane sex session we were both just laying in bed where we fell lol. we were trying to catch our breath and rest a minute. hell my head was still spinning. i was telling him how fucking wet i still was. i asked him if he knew where he threw my toy and he got it for me.i could not help it i was still horny. after all the build up of the sex we just had i wanted more. i started to play with my toy on my clit and started to really moan and get into it and next thing i know he is getting between my legs and his nice dick was entering me again. he kept the little vib bullet on my clit and started to fuck me really deep. oh my fucking god i could not believe how great that felt. almost every time he came back in me he was deep and hit my g spot.(did i mention his dick is pretty big and hitting that spot isnt hard for him lol) that with the vib on my clit made my legs and whole body shake and i came the first time. shit i just kept cumming and cumming and cumming and cumming. ya thats right 4 times lol he wanted to go for more but i could barely take the 3rd one and on the 4th one he came with me. holy shit!!! thats what i have to stay about that. i could not believe how fucking great it was. i got light headed and i screamed so fucking loud and was moaning like crazy. i have never ever cum like that before. people that know me know i didnt have orgasms for most of my life. well i just recently started having them with tristan. it was still not an everytime we fucked thing. it dont bother me not to cum i like to please my guy more but this guy i was with omg he made me do shit i said i would never do and feel things i never felt. i guess that what i get. he asked me earlier if that sex was the best i have ever had and i said no the Marine was better that one time. and so i guess he set out to prove he was the best and he proved it 4 times over lol. he made me cum and then before i could even come down from it he brought me right back up and came again the third time was the longest time between cumming. it took him like a few extra minutes to get me to cum this time. ya i said minutes. he made me cum 4 times in less than 20 minutes lol. my body could not take it anymore shit i was so light headed and out of breath and shaking all over. i could not believe how fucking incredible it was. just one right after another after another. i see what i have been missing out on now. but i wont miss out on cumming again. im sure we will have to try to break that record of 4. and i hope we do lol. i was taking him home today and i said i wanted to try new things. i have alot to learn and try. i told him i have to put my restraints back on my bed and he proceeded to tell me just what he would do to me if i let him cuff me up. holy shit! i could not believe it. he explained in detail what he wanted to do. i was like man this is just not fair he was driving and i wanted to have him pull off the road and just fuck him right here. he talked about blindfolding me and cuffing me up and teasin me with ice and my vibrator and toothpaste and feathers and everything. i NEED to try that shit he told me. i cant wait till he comes by again. damn after writing all this i think i might need to get a hold of him. lol or the Marine and let him know hes not the best anymore but i would be totally willing to let him try to reclaim his title. hell thinking about that i should just get them together and i could have both at one time lol. ok so ya you know way to much about my sex life now but hey who the fuck cares. everyone fucks im just the one that writes about it. ok so if that whole restraint thing happens i will let you know. i have to go and um....um.....shit to horny and tired to come up with a good lie fuck it. ok fine im going to go masterbate you happy? lol bye bye