So, anyways~ I had fun yesterday evening, not last night mind you, cuz i was at work, ASLEEP.... which sucked... I'll get into that in a minute...
So, anyways, Derek and I hung out last night. It was actually, a lot of fun. Esp. considering there is NOTHING to do in Enid... unless of course you use drugs, or drink all the time... But, anyways, we went to the park, and walked around and talked for a while... it was fun. Although I'm really not too sure about him. I mean, all be it I am used to guys who are shy (cuz for some reason i ALWAYS like guys who are shy)... it sorta seems like, he doesn't like me. But, I can't judge people well. (as far as their feelings, w/ out them just blatantly telling me something). But I dunno~ i kinda have some pretty mixed feelings about everything there anwyays. That i am SOOO not going into in a public blog, so i'll wait til i'm on myspace and write about it.
But, he's an amazing guy. He's really sweet. He's a lot of fun to be around, and talk to.... we have a lot more in common than i figured we would.
Then, taking into account, DENNIS... who doesn't seem to want to just LET ME GO.... thats becoming a headache... for sure... he just wont stop... I guess I don't really want to be in a relationship as I don't want to bring anyone into the drama in my life. It sucks. Most days, it's no big deal, but some days... OH MY GOD.... it's drama central...
I dunno~ i guess, like always, I second guess everything. I don't really know what is going on most of the time, and I think i live confused. I can never really like someone without questioning everything... i worry too much, i don't know what to do most of the time. It's like, For once in my life, i just want a normal, quiet peaceful relationship.... I don't want all the bullshit and drama that seems to come along w/ dating.... (well dating the men I seem to date, not ALL men, can't be going all sexest *lol*)
anyways, lexi is sick, and woke up i need to go take care of her...
