Everyday I swear that i'm a day ahead and
instead I wake up in the morning and i'm 2 days behind. Life for me always seems so hard I'm always in a rut. Now its different I feel as if i'm falling and I can't reach the top. I try so
hard to make it and I keep falling. I think
i'm finally reached despair for the first
time. Behind the fake smiles and laughter.
Is a girl struggling to make it through
life.
My mother is very sick with tons of pressure
on her back and sides. Everytime I think
about my life I would love to just sit and
let out the tears but I know if I cry in front
of her shes going to worry. Shes already sick
I don't want her to get upset. But i'm
falling in despair and I refuse to let her worry. I have to get our lives on track for
the both of us. I swear that I'm going to succeed because there is no other option
for me. I need to help her and myself.
Tears build up inside me but i'm not letting them out. This isn't a time to feel sorry
for myself it's time to work harder at my l
ife. Cause I know there is no one there to
help me but myself. I'm not ready to depend
on anyone because I know they will only be
a let down. Life is going to be a struggle,
but I don't need sympathy. I just need to
let out my frustrations so I can move forward.
My mother is my best friend and my LIFE,
nothing less than that. Everytime I call
her shes always there within ten minutes.
Now I will work hard for her and myself b
ecause she deserves nothing less then the
world. And I would rather dietrying then
give up on life now. I'm 19 and Independent. Ever since very young i've learned what it
was to do without. My life has been very hard but we worked through it. And now we will
again because i'm taking the burden on my shoulders.I'm going to do anything that is needed to succeed. I must! Determined is my mindset right now, I can't break down.
Thanks to all of you who where there for
me along the way staying by my side and
talking to me. I REALLY appreciated it.
Your friendship is greatly appreciated. <3
