Shortii2Sweet TYS0NS WiFE hearts's blog: "Random"

No one gives a DAMN if your single, you just want them to pitty your ass. But just remember Bitch.. When i'm walkinq down the street with him Bitch i know your qunna be jealous, Look at me, you know i'm better and you can't fuckinq stand it.. When he puts that ring on MY finger your qunna wish that he said he loved you But you can keep on wishinq bitch because he's all mine. . . Oh and if i see you talkinq to him you won't have the quts to do it aqain =] Stay away from him or you'll pay, it's not a threat bitch, it's a promise... =]

Baby I need your lovin' Baby I need your lovin' Although you're never near Your voice I often hear Another day, another night I long to hold you tight 'Cause I'm so lonely Baby, I need your lovin' I got to have all your lovin' Baby, I need your lovin' Got to have all your lovin' Some say it's a sign of weakness For a man to beg Then weak I'd rather be If it means havin' you to keep 'Cause lately I've been losin' sleep Baby, I need your lovin' I got to have all your lovin' Baby, I need your lovin' Got to have all your lovin' Empty nights Echo your name Sometimes I wonder Will I ever be the same Oh yeah, when you see me smile You know Things have gotten worse Any smile you might see Has all been rehearsed Darlin', I can't go on without you This emptiness won't let me live without you This loneliness inside me darlin' Makes me feel not alive, honey Baby, I need your lovin' I got to have all your lovin' Baby, I need your lovin' Got to have all your lovin' Baby, I need your lovin' I got to have all your lovin' Baby, I need your lovin' Got to have all your lovin'

I need love, love To ease my mind I need to find, find someone to call mine But mama said You cant hurry love No, you just have to wait She said love dont come easy Its a game of give and take You cant hurry love No, you just have to wait You got to trust, give it time No matter how long it takes But how many heartaches Must I stand before I find a love To let me live again Right now the only thing That keeps me hangin on When I feel my strength, yeah Its almost gone I remember mama said: You cant hurry love No, you just have to wait She said love dont come easy Its a game of give and take How long must I wait How much more can I take Before loneliness will cause my heart Heart to break? No I cant bear to live my life alone I grow impatient for a love to call my own But when I feel that i, I cant go on These precious words keeps me hangin on I remember mama said: You cant hurry love No, you just have to wait She said love dont come easy Its a game of give and take You cant hurry love No, you just have to wait She said trust, give it time No matter how long it takes No, love, love, dont come easy But I keep on waiting Anticipating for that soft voice To talk to me at night For some tender arms To hold me tight I keep waiting I keep on waiting But it aint easy It aint easy But mama said: You cant hurry love No, you just have to wait She said to trust, give it time No matter how long it takes You cant hurry love No, you just have to wait She said love dont come easy Its a game of give and take

Time is My Enemy My Body is My Weapon Swimming is My World My Times 2 lengths of the pool: 40 seconds 4 lengths of the pool: 1 min 38 seconds

I move back to my dorm room on Tuesday. Which makes this the last night I have with my mom. I know I can see her weekends. It's just not the same. Throughout this past break from school me and my mom have became closer. If that's even possbile. When I go back to school i'm going to worry about her. I know she' sick, and it worries me that I won't be able to take care of her. She is the strongest woman I know and she has given up many things in her life just so I could live a happy life. I wouldn't give her up for the world. And i'm crying as i'm writing this because as stupid as it sounds it feels as if it's the last time i'm going to see her. Yes, it may sound stupid because I know it's not the last time. But just picturing her walking away from my campus to go back to an empty house just hurts me inside. I'm going to see her every weekend I can, because being away from her just hurts to damn much. I love you Mom! <3

It hurts being so close and seeing you walk away.. why does our first love have to walk away from us anyways? why does it have to hurt so extremley much? I'm just glad i've moved on and found someone I truly love now. And I know we will last and be in love. I love him <3

Well.. school is starting soon I just can't wait to go back. Going to school and dorming just takes all the stress of life. Living the way you want and staying up all night after working on a hard paper. Wish me luck guys I got hard classes to look forward to guys. But I know i'm a strongwilled woman who knows what shes after. And i'm after good grades. Because the one thing I can't understand is why a 20-30 year old adult still complains that young adults are out of control. I know damn well i'm not out of control, and I don't have to prove it to anyone. My grades and my commitment to my Sorority provide enough to show you that i'm not an amature. I know where I want to go in life and I won't stop until I'm there. And i'll be damned if people try to stop me. Because you can't stop me, you just give me more will to go on everyday and work harder to succeed in what I do. Thanks to all those who support me in everything I do you are great supports. And to those who are against me, thanks your the best because you allow me to get through life knowing that i'm good and it kills you. =)

Everyday I swear that i'm a day ahead and instead I wake up in the morning and i'm 2 days behind. Life for me always seems so hard I'm always in a rut. Now its different I feel as if i'm falling and I can't reach the top. I try so hard to make it and I keep falling. I think i'm finally reached despair for the first time. Behind the fake smiles and laughter. Is a girl struggling to make it through life. My mother is very sick with tons of pressure on her back and sides. Everytime I think about my life I would love to just sit and let out the tears but I know if I cry in front of her shes going to worry. Shes already sick I don't want her to get upset. But i'm falling in despair and I refuse to let her worry. I have to get our lives on track for the both of us. I swear that I'm going to succeed because there is no other option for me. I need to help her and myself. Tears build up inside me but i'm not letting them out. This isn't a time to feel sorry for myself it's time to work harder at my l ife. Cause I know there is no one there to help me but myself. I'm not ready to depend on anyone because I know they will only be a let down. Life is going to be a struggle, but I don't need sympathy. I just need to let out my frustrations so I can move forward. My mother is my best friend and my LIFE, nothing less than that. Everytime I call her shes always there within ten minutes. Now I will work hard for her and myself b ecause she deserves nothing less then the world. And I would rather dietrying then give up on life now. I'm 19 and Independent. Ever since very young i've learned what it was to do without. My life has been very hard but we worked through it. And now we will again because i'm taking the burden on my shoulders.I'm going to do anything that is needed to succeed. I must! Determined is my mindset right now, I can't break down. Thanks to all of you who where there for me along the way staying by my side and talking to me. I REALLY appreciated it. Your friendship is greatly appreciated. <3

Losing you the first time killed me inside and all i did was cry for the whole month and wondered what I did so wrong that had you break up with me now its almost November we have been together since July and I feel as if i'm going to lose you again. I can't lose you again because I love you so damn much and I say it to you everyday, talk to you for hours everyday. The only thing that keeps me motivated is knowing that soon enough I will be living with you and we will be living the life we have always dreamed of the life of: us being together. I just can't take it i love you so much and theres no one else is the world that can love me like you can, or put a smile on my face even when i'm sad. Your the only one I turn to with my problems because I trust you with my life. We have been together for so long. Why would you turn back on us now? Our relationship and love is supposivly so strong why would you have me lose the love of my life again. I need you baby. Your the only person that has allowed me to feel true love and I don't want to lose it because frankly if I lose you again I don't know what i'm going to do, because I know I will not be the same girl, ever again. Your are my breath and my heartbeat. Without you I wouldn't have found love. I love you baby, i really do with all my heart