TabbieEater's blog: "Observations of a Tabbie Eater"

Who am i was the question? They didnt ask it directly but it was asked non the less. Most i see have no idea who they are. They spend their whole lives not understanding. I spoke with a person this week whom has a good relationship even by their accounts but have no idea why it's on the brink of ending. They are self destructing and they dont know why. They are an emotional wreck. They know this...why do they not change. Is this who they are? I had a friend tell me that i was the topic of conversation in their group. I was spoken poorly of. I asked did they defend me. The answer was "I did not deny that i know you. Facinating their desire to be validated by these people was greater than defending a friend. This is a person who claims enlightenedment. Which means they have no standards. This kind of stuff makes my ears bleed and cry out for the end. Is this who they are? What is not understood is that our actions or inaction are the ONLY thing that define us as a person. Hero's are hero's because they act when others dont. Thieves are thieves because they steal. It is really that simple. We desire to have others think the best of us no matter what we've done. Is this who we are? Doing wrong is something we all do but it's how we behave afterwards is what contributes in defining us. Wavering is not an option for me. Being who you want to be is easy. You pick a direction and stay the course. Opinions change and views change but the course is always the same. Staying the course is all i know. I bare the brusies because i will not yield. This way if someone thinks the worst of me or the best of me. I earned it. Not because i think it but because i live it. Hate me for who i am...i can live with that but love me for somthing im not ......mmmm it's tempting but i think ill stay the course.