sapphirestar's blog: "Starlight"

Crushed by overwhelming waves I feel like crying Crashing on the rock strewn shore I settle for sighing Almost constantly I release that little puff of air Hoping, wishing, praying that some of my pain Will slip between my lips and disappear within the atmosphere And perhaps for a moment or two it works At least sighing is an action I can take But the whole depressing mess still looms within A loneliness, a frustration, a weariness that I can’t shake When will this gloom-filled zone give way To a thing I have heard of from foreign lands, called day Why can’t it just go away These things that tear and pinch and claw at me These things that strive to overcome my last bit of confidence I look without seeing Laugh without smiling I feel only numbness Which is no feeling at all

thanks todd. im gone for a week with pneumonia and i come back to find that when you asked me to be your r/l gf, you were bullshitting me. nice. what kind of man lies to an invalid while shes in the hospital. now that is true class, let me tell you. hope you are happy. thanks for crushing my heart.

A bitter crumb From the bread of life Dipped in blood red wine Lodged in my throat Cutting off my air Raising my dispair A word softly spoken Screams inside my head Until I wish I were dead Feeling their stares Rank condemnation A cold determination To hate all that I am Without knowing why Who would dare defy All gathered about my corpse All that remains is a shell And they bid me an icy farewell And so i descend Knowing not where I go Or why I'm alone Whispers circle around Echoes of sweet moments past How I wish they would last But I must depart Going deeper in my maze Heart torn and mind dazed I hear your voice calling I'm afraid to hope So i blindly grope Reaching with longing A hunger I cannot expain Burns till only ashes remain And then I see your face And my dream comes true At then end of it all I find you