When it does and you have no Sugar, you can't make Lemonade.
Life Sucks and then you died. I hate this year, it hasn't brought me anything but heartache. My Ex's Sister, we went pass In-laws and she dies from Colon Cancer. I should have been there for her to make it safely to the other-side but I freaked. So, this Decade has really been sucking for me.
I meet a wonderful guy on here, life turn upside down for him, he was going to meet me and now he isn't. If my Intuitions are right I will never meet him, so now with all the bad shit that has happen in the last 7 years my heart is breaking.
Does my BF care that I have been crying all this week and thinking of ending my life again especially from all the Idiots on other Web Sites that call me Princess to Beautiful and then they want my yahoo ID. God, I just want to scream or start slicing!
Maybe I should give up on ever finding love cause it isn't finding me. I sit in a dark corner in my mind, it is safe there cause my heart isn't. do I stay or do I go?
Maybe my next operation will go find but my recovery won't... I don't care anymore... Been hurt too much this year... I won't meet my BF... My Son is getting to the point that he may not be with me for long... I wish I was never born to a Bee-otch of a Mother, I could never do good for her,I was the cat that she kicked at the end of the day... Should I worry my BF will read this, no... He isn't around for me anymore, he's too busy with himself and his Daughter... Soon I won't be able to give unconditional love anymore except to my son...
