As of tonight I feel
like I am less than a man.
With all of this stress
its so hard to stand.
My will to keep going
continues to fail.
Im begging for the wind
that I need for my sail.
Im lost and confused.
Theres so much inside.
To most I seem happy.
The sadness I hide.
I try to make progress
in living again
but the more that I try
the more that I bend.
Its so hard for me
to feel like a man.
Its so hard for me
because of where I am.
My life seems to be crashing
once more for the break
and maybe this time
its too much to take.
How do I allow
myself to believe
that it will get better
and the stress will leave?
Right now I am stuck
and I cant seem to see
that part of my life
is fading from me.
Sometimes I just wanna cry.
