Becca In Baltimore's blog: "So Strange.."

I opened my door to my very intoxicated love - yes very drunk - but suprisingly very literate. I helped him to the couch and said - you have to stop doing this to yourself - you have so much to live for - he just looked at me with those beautiful sad blue eyes and said - IM IN LOVE WITH YOU - BUT - we both know that im a drunk - and i know that you are lonely and sad - and I hope you understand that im a person that is totall at ease with this - which is not to say that im indifferent or that i dont care - I DO - it simply means that I trust you and your judgement - and you can throw me out - or you can let me stay and hold you - and you can know that at least for this one night - there is a man who wants nothing more then to hold you and let you know that you are indeed loved!

its just really strange - its like things are happening really quickly - and thats so NOT me! ummm for instance - just the second i met him and the way i said my name right away! I never tell my real name when i first meet a guy! I just said HI - my name is Rebecca - Thats so out of character for me! but it just felt so easy - and for the first time in my life - i felt like I was me. I didnt feel like i was trying to be somebody else.