So I let myself fall in love with him - accepting he is a drunk - we go out and at first its fine - he controls the alcohol - but soon - sooner then expected = the alcohol controls him and he becomes violent - NOT towards me - you have to understand - NEVER towards me - is what makes me love him and stay with him - I want to take care of him.....
but soon its clear im not enough - i cant help him - i cant heal him - and i am beginning to think that being with me is hurting him even more.
