Just had another ridiculously long shower. Fortunately the shower is a great place to hide. Its just a hand full of days now, days, not weeks, days. And I should be so happy, and I am. But, sometimes you see something, hear something and you just miss her. You really miss her. I feel like I have been just to far for to long. I want this out now, before she is home tonight. I don't want to see her like this, not now. I want nothing but smiles right now. I just really missed her tonight. Its been a long day. I just cant wait to see her face, her beautiful face. I feel like I have loved her for ever, and in a way I have. I know in my heart, my mind what I am missing, and its hard. Get with it Sean, just days, days. Just days left, and you will be there, and you will never leave. Who the hell are you Sean, to make her wait? To make yourself wait? God I love her, I always have, and I have waited long enough. Just days. I love you Angel. I miss you Angel. I don't know if I can forgive myself for being so far away for so long. Feels like a life time, I would never do this again. I could not stay away from her like this again, once I see her face, that's it, she holds the key, don't loose that key Angel. I need to breath your air, I need to feel your breath at night, the air here is just to thin for me alone like this, I miss you. I love you.
