Forgive me father for I have sinned
every day I find another way to not let you in
Is there any other way to fall asleep at night
other then bitter tears and fights?
I turn out the lights
and pray that it'll all just be a dream
someones says their's a light
maybe someday I'll catch a gleam
I kick and I scream but I don't want a fight
why can't you just leave me right here
I only wanna sink into your floor.
become a piece of the routine
a crazy mixed up life
swirling with hate
I can't stand seeing your face
It makes me want to rip out your heart
is that bad?
is it angry?
Do I deserve what they say?
Would it be better just to pop all these pills
and whisper good night
let the world drift away
and leave me behind...?
I'm tired of fighting the fear
why can't it all just disappear?
A fucked up dream whisked away by the light.
~Jess
