I feel drained. I feel Tired, I'm frustrated. I want to scream at the top of my lungs till My breath, my heart, my mind gives out. Seems like everything is out to get me. I try, I work, I strive. Only to keep hitting this invisible wall that wont let me succeed. I can't seem to find that winning formula, that thing that everyone else seems to have that lets them move forward. For some reason, it eludes me.
I'm alone in this. I can't explain it in a way that will allow you to understand it. I can only put these words down and hope that in some way it will make me feel better. I feel beaten, like I've just been through 12 rounds with a heavy weight champ. Mentally I'm a whirlwind, thoughts scattered and misplaced. Physically, while i may seem to be Ok, I'm not, im bruised, and broken. Sanity wise...I'm not sure anymore.
Thoughts, too many, and not enough answers to satisfy. Damned if I do, and Damned if I don't. Can't seem to make myself happy let alone anyone else. You could say im depressed, it wouldn't be too far from the truth. But I'm also happy...kinda.
Too hard to explain, once again....Dip into my mind someday, it may explain things, since I dont seem to be able too.
