It's been a while since I weighed myself so I did this morning and of course it was a unhappy number. I know that we just had Thanksgiving.....I blame myself on for that...I blame myself for not working out more often.
I've decided to change what I eat again. I'm going to cut each meal I have in half. I packed my lunch already for work. Instead of a full sandwich, it's a half sandwich. Not too much of a difference, but it's some bit of a change.
I'm going to do my best to stay away carbs. Yeah I know you gotta eat the carbs, but I'm going to cut back a lot. Figures today at work, I was starving because I hadn't ate anything in almost 7 hours. I grabbed some Arby's.....bad me...but I was hungry and needed something on the way home. Traffic is always a bitch on Fridays and Mondays.
I thought a lot at work, like usual...mostly negative things. I didn't speak much at work. Well, I was hella tired cause I didn't get any sleep last night which really sucked. I probably went to bed around 12, laid there for along while....1am...2am...3am....4am...fuck....time to get up....
I thought more about certain things....which I will not say in here. Making me wonder if those things could be true or if they're just things people say... I dunno...
I was talking with one of my co-workers about something....she told me I should make another doctors appointment because they must of missed something because it didn't sound right...even though the doctor said my tests were fine and I shouldn't worry....But I still get those weird...feelings. No...not preggors..not that... It's something else.
She also told me that she wants to buy me something that she uses and may be able to help me. She insists I should make another appointment....do some more testings... I just dont get how the doctor could say that I'm fine when I don't feel fine? I guess I'll take some more blood works tests and junk...
My last doc appointment I had with her....I had asked her if she could give me any advice on my weight loss...She did say I could look into this one medication at first....but it wouldn't go well with the anti-depressants I take....Diet and excerise she said...>Yeah...but I"m doing something wrong though..... it's not working well.... And yes, I know these things takes time....But shouldn't I see some type of difference within a month or more? Sigh.....
Men...myself...shit....stress...frustration...so many things on my mind......
