i wish there was a way to not feel something for someone. i wish there was a way to stop yourself from falling...knowing that there is going to be pain when it all ends. the more you fall the more you know its going to hurt and the harder it is to stop. the whole time your falling you have the hopes that maybe this fall wont end and this was the right cliff to jump off of...ya you may bang against the sides once in a while but thats ok, your still falling.
then it happens...you hit the bottom and the world shatters and falls around you and you wonder why you took a chance. you know the answer even tho you asked the question...you want/need to be loved and to have that is worth any risk. doesnt matter where you find it or where it finds you at...you want it. you take the bait knowingly and you run with it...
soon the pain will pass and and you will again look for that elusive thing called love.
so i will sit here with my many rolls of duct tape and my shattered shards of my heart and try to put it back togther again....
