youd like to think this was about some dirty little secret... truth is... this really has nothing to do with sideways...maybe it should be called the long distance tango....i show i care and you ignore me you show you still care and ill ignore you... back and fourth its a loseing battle between broken hearts trying to prove god knows what... maybe that were stronger while we hurt when we show no emotion to that of whom we cherish... i think that thats the way it goes....when u show weakness and emotion it makes the other party obvilious to the fact that they are hurting you they dont see it or they know they do and they ingore it.. and then you wonder why they do such things... because when you build your esteem back up..when you build your strength and heart back to stable... they show there weakness... or well i dunno if its weakness excately.. maybe they jsut realize that they were being douchebags all this time for acting like you didnt exist... im just.... there has to be a point where you deside that your not going to play that game anymore... your not going to give that effort any more... if they really want to talk to you and or really truely miss you they will come back and show it.. and hopefully if they do it wont be to late for them to make amends.... ive spent to much time wondering if i was being lied to again if i was being told things i wanted to hear just because they didnt want to tell me the truth...im not stupid....if they or he loved me like he said he did so long ago he wouldnt ingore me and hurt me like he has...
this is about my past.. my present state...as much as id like to have made a nicer blog about better things.. theres somethings that i have to get off my chest my past isnt over yet i dont know whats going on with it actually...pretty much its ignoring me and im getting tired of being ignored and know having answers whether or not its because thinking about things hurt to much to talk about or whatever the reason be...give me the cold shoulder and ill return the favor evol.... look in the mirror and i know it hurts... belive me ive dealt with it for far to long now and love me or hate me... either way show it...everybody knows there not getting much out of me anyways...and im not giving anything up
