Dust in the wind's blog: "a diamond in the rough"

i know who i am....i know what i control...i know that life isnt simple and the world doesnt revolve around me... i know i have drama  i keep most of it quiet but  ive never quiet gathered as much hate for someone as i have these past few months....when will they learn.... im not a teacher..its not my job to tell people what to do with there lifes... but..when you put yourself in the position to get yelled at for not owning up to your mistakes and fuck up... when you want to talk shit about the people that let you stay with them and in that agreement that was made and then you break the agreement,more than once..you take advantage of the veichels that arent yours,when you mistreat a puppydog that you spent money on then yell at because it wants attention from you.... when you live in a room that reeks of bad odor and dog shit and piss because your too lazy to clean up after your self and yout pet.... and you wont take  the better step and help around a house that you lounge in all day,when you mooch off of every body around you and have no respect for anybody but yourself  and yet want respect back... fucking grow up....

 I wont lie i know i can talk shit... i wont deny it.. i know im a bitch...but i only talk shit about the people that give me reason to talk shit.. the people that disrespect me and my home so far.... i think the count meter is at 2.. the 1st being ryans family who hated my guts for trying to get him away from that enviorment.. and 2 this boy...we have given plenty of people a place to stay.. and a lil ways down the line they ditch out on us..or up and dissapear... friendships dissapate  and life goes on.....others they survive.. this one... i guess if u really even want to call it a friendship...its more like ti was an excuse for him to get away from granny so he could do his drugs and underage drink and  act like hes tough shit... which its fuckin the stupidest thing i could ever see....

 this is not the end of the world jsut because we wont take care of you anymore.. you should not expect people to make ur decisions then get pissed because  were not as nice and we once were.. being nice.. you know hwat happens... we get fucked over for being nice.... but look what happend... so being controling and selfish with what we have now makes us a bunch of assholes??? hmm sounds like somebody  just isnt happy because hes not getting the pitty attention... hes not getting to use peoples cars like we gave him the chance to... he took that freedom and ran.....

i know im rambleing... this here.. this blog is me venting...im so fed up and done with his bullshit and i seriously cant wait for thursday to come sooner i cant wait for this house to be better.. to be more relaxed to be more settle... everything is so high strung right now...and if i dont get this off my chest it would probably be to his face...and right now im tryin to bite my tounge the best i can


i can say one positive thing though that has come  out of this experience... i have been introduced to some pretty cool people.. well they seem pretty cool and they seems to understand quiet a bit about the situtation which i appreciate that they do... and if your reading this im sry you have to read   the situtation lol i jsut had to get it off my chest and get it off my mind... best way to do it is to write it out  lol... so yea... alright enought with that topic.. .

thursday i have my final appointment with the workforce and should be getting my scholarship money.. so friday if i can get out there in time  monday ill be in sanford  doing the school.. im a lil anxious but excited at the same time i know itll go good and ive got nothin to worry about lol... and hopefully before the weekend ill beable to see my "neice" addison  because im aunty heather now hehe... and ill be able to see miranda... which will be nice to ....

whats that phrase in angar managment that jack says to adam... something like goose throba??? hahahahahahaha.. alrighty... its off my chest and my mind time to have a good chill night woot.... take it easy chillens :P