Ok, so why is it when I tell people I'm on a diet they say "Why?? You don't need to be!!" UM, if i didn't need to be would I be??!? I mean, HELLO?!?!? I'm a chick... I used to be a size 3 for god's sake!! Now i'm all fat and shit... and ok, suuure, i look pretty good now... i know... so don't tell me... but I want to be smaller... I'd like to be able to wear my old jeans (pre lexi not pre tash)I would be happy in a size 7... (i normally wear mudds... and stuff like that... soo i go in odd sizes...) but a 7/8 would be perfect for me. I'd be happy. Right now, I'm in like a 13/14... uumm, hello?!?! MOO?!?! And I think this was brought on by the "BBW" thing... dude, i'm not that big... i swear to fucking god, I'm not... MOST of those women are like fucking size 20 or more... and they like being fat.... i don't... It's not healthy... your BMI should be like below 25... if you're in a 20... it's probably over 36.... which means, HELLO??!!? DEATH BY HEART ATTACK?!?!?
I have nothing against anyone... I mean, some women look GOOD even though they're "bigger"... lol they have the boobs to go with their fat... lol sorry... but see, i don't... the way i'm built i should be at about a 7/8... i can deal wth a 9 or 10...
SOOO, just support my choice, and understand it's not about impressing others, its about my self-esteem.... So don't tell me I don't need to diet... just give me kudos for being on a HARSH diet I'm sticking with... I haven't had anything with carbs in it, in... well, what today is monday... sooo a week. No potatoes.... no pasta... no carrots even... no chocolate... hello?!?!? CHOCOLATE.... nothing with sugar... NO sugar... all i eat is meat, and certain veges.... SOOO it's pretty cool actually... but its not easy by any means... esp cuz I'm still cooking normal foods for the girls and stuff... they had toast this morning, and i was like.. mmmmm... toast... lmao how terrible huh?!?!?
Anyways, thats my rant for the morning.
