Well, Dennis is on another one of his screaming yelling ranting shits again.... BUT THE GOOD NEWS... I did something OTHER than save a bunch of money on my car insurance by switching to Geico... I got a job... lol, yay... pays 14.25 an hour... fun huh?? Yeah, well, at least I'll be able to move out on my own now... which will be here pretty soon... Dennis got an apartment and he moves in tomorrow... more than likely I'll stay there til i get a few pay checks, and my car fixed... then I'll get a place of my own... I'm so sick and tired of being yelled at, and treated like shit, and called names.... I'm so sick of being so depressed that I'm in tears, and don't wanna get outta bed... I'm sick of living like this... and the girls shouldn't have to see it either.... So, thats the plan, the plot, and the way things are... it's gonna be nice... I've gotten so sick and tired of dealing with his bullshit.... it'slike, endless... he finds some reason to bitch... always.... he bitches at me for nothing, he bitches at me when someone else does something he doesn't like, he talks shit about everyone.... i'm like, wow... get the fuck over it... all he does is cause problems... i have worked so hard to keep this house clean and shit, and pick up after the girls, and all he had to do was deal with the lawn... and did he do it?!?!?!? fuck no!!!! it took WEEKS before he did... he finally got it done... like, yesterday... literlly... yet i get bitched at for like, nothing.... I'll get bitched at for sitting on this computer for more than 3 minutes.... i get bitched at for talking to my friends, i get get bitched at for not cooking in time, or not cooking at all (cuz some days i just don't feel like it) and i am doin shit all day long too... dealing with the girls cleaning up after them, bathing them, running them around, taking them outside to play, and sometimes i'd like to relax... sometimes i'd like some peace and quiet... but god help me if i ask for it... cuz then i get my ass chewed in every which direction... can i be by myself?!?!? FUCK NO.... when i start working i'll still have to do all the cooking and laundry and random shit.... i wont get quiet robin time or i'll be yelled at... but it will all still be my fault, and I'll deserve to be yelled at cuz 'he needs his time too'. Yet I'm not allowed to even go hang out with my friends... that one night i went out with sarah... yeah got my ass chewed... i mean seriously WTF?!?! he can run off and go to 'BUBBA'S' house and get high (yeah USING DRUGS) and drink and STAY OUT UNTIL 7 IN THE FUCKING MORNING but god help me if i wanna just hang out with out him... yeah seriously... sad huh?!?!?!? Not even drinking, just hang out and my ass gets bitched at.... Yet, thats fair... because???? Your guess is as good as mine... I'm not allowed to do anything he does... apparently there are "Dennis Rules"... and he's allowed to do as he pleases, and I'm not allowed to do shit.... It's unreal.... anytime i even get a chance to do something without him or with out the kids, he starts talking shit saying i'm a horrible mother cuz i don't wanna spend time with my kids... like, NEWS FLASH... i've spent more time with those kids than he has by far... but I'm the bad parent because i wanna do something.... I mean seriously how is this fucking fair???
OOOOHHHHH and on a whole other scale of bullshit.... SOOO like the other day, dennis was being a shit face, as usual... And I'm like, dude what the fuck?? I guess his mommy was supposed to be coming to see the girls, she threw a fit like the cunt she always is, and then he starts yelling at me cuz i simply said "Oh well"... she does this all the time, throw fits and goes back on promises.... well she did it again, and with no sarcasm, I simply say "Oh well" and he goes off on my throwing a fit.... And i don't even want the stupid cunt in my life... she took my fucking kid, was in court telling them i was a horrible mother, i was abusing my child, sexually and physically... and telling them I was using drugs and drinking and shit in front of my kids... was I?? uuummm NO... but she just ran off telling ppl all this crazy shit... and of course her TITTY BABY SON went right along with it... so her and dennis were doing this shit... so of course I would not want that cunt in my life... who would????
Anyways, its getting late I've gotta get the girls to bed... they're screaming throwing fits and stuff... so I've gotta take care of this now... sooo anyways... yeah... have a good night....
