i was chatting with this guy i really like we went out twice and are very attracted to each other but he's backs off does a disappearing act i told him i like him but i also asked if i should stop wanting to see him he keeps saying no and says im sweet and sexy but i have a feeling i'm being played again i really have those feelings so much my heart beats so much faster when we chat. i've told him over and over don't play games with me because i am so damn vulnerable now nobody has given me those weird feelings for a long time and am so afraid i'm setting myself up to be hurt again. should i just walk away put a end to it or just go with the flow maybe he's afraid to get close to me i feel sick rightnow i hate when my stomach gets twisted why do i find men who just want to play a game like this. it bad enuff with the younger men who want to just bang me men who want no physical contact just get off on cybersex even fetishs who want a piece of my clothing i know and i try to separate real and fantasy but i'm tired i already know i'm a sweet sentimental person i know i know i deserve the real thing i'm a great friend a gentle lover and all the trapping from being a good girl i can't be nasty or rude not in my nature just too nice sometimes i have a sign sometimes that reads pushover. i don't believe i'm crazy just too damn easily hurt. i am tough on other things just men but back to this i need some opinions feedback and after my mumm disaster today won't do that again.
