I should have learned months ago, that words spoken have to be proven...
I thought I learnt that, but I guess I was wrong...
I hear/see the words spoken,... maybe I just wanted to believe them... I still want to believe them... I honestly want to believe them... but, can I? I don't know anymore.
How can you believe something, when other things "point" to something different?
A very dear friend told me months ago that words have to be proven... That actions speak louder than words...
So ok, yes, there are a few little "actions" that helps me to believe in some words that were spoken... yet, as I said before, other things point to something completely different....
How can these words be proven to me?... That is something I do not know, or else I haven't figured it out yet...
Maybe as this is read, the person it is meant for, will see how much inner anguish I'm in and try to set things right... If not, then I guess it wasn't meant to happen.
I have never been a person to give up, and I want all to know, I wont give up this time either... but things will be different... if all this is meant to be, then by damn, it will be proven to me... one way or the other... good or bad.
If it's not meant to be, then hey, give some kind of closure... just don't leave things hanging out there... show some respect and let me know what is going on.
I'm sorry if none of this makes sense to many of you, but to the person it's meant for, it will make a lot of sense...
I know I rambled and thought were scattered, but right now, that's how I'm feeling... Scattered...
