Does it flow like a waterfall, and in some twisted way do you feel beauty in it, because of the way it flows. Flows to perfection taking your will with it and everything that life was and making you live in a reality where the past nor the future exists to where you can even think about it.
This is what I felt one Sunday. All I could think about was the fate that God made a rainbow for ensuring me and wondering how anything could change that. I was thinking of an unborn child and though it was impossible in my brain to even think of why i felt this pain for a child that I was TOLD was not mine, I felt its death inside my soul mate that never was. I didn't know it at the time all I could see was rivers upon rivers of sadness. What purpose did it serve to obey and yet it never was?
I sent her a picture of the water we looked at as we held each other, and as I saw the happiest woman that there ever was...along with words-phrases-lyrics , 5 of them from 3 songs that only we know what they mean.
She tells me: "I miscarried yesterday".......2000 miles away...only to hear this the next day
Then one day I just want to die. I tell her that I can't take it any more, that I want to leave this earth. She tells me FUCK YOU ...NEVER CONTACT ME AGAIN ASSHOLE!
The rule of three? Comes back to me a ZERO
