SO THIS IS A COPY OF A BLOG I WROTE FOR MY MYSPACE... ALOT OF PEOPLE ASK ABOUT MY EX AND ABOUT HOW JAYDEN IS DOING AND ITS GOT ALL OF THAT SO I FIGURED I WOULD POST IT HERE TOO. ITS KIND OF LONG THO LMAO..ENJOY!
So im sitting awake and its 4:35am, and i decided to write a blog about how everything in my life has changed.
I guess i will start with Jayden. She is 7 weeks old, and god is she growing fast! she has gained a pound a week since she was born. Ive went thru quite a bit with her.
First of all her failure of a father is nolonger in my life nor hers. First of all he didnt sign her birthcertifiate. Thru my hole pregnancy it was known that he wanted a dna test. why i have no fucking clue because he was living with me the hole month that she was concieved.. but anyways i told him if he wanted it then he had to pay for it. Well when we were at the hospital he could have had it done, but he didnt. I wasnt about to have it done anywhere else but the hospital. When i signed the birthcertificate he was told he had untill that friday(it was monday) to come back and fill out his part. he never did it. I had him kicked out of the hospital the day after she was born because him and his fat ass bitch of a sister came up in my hospital room acting like the ignorant black people they are (guess thats what i get huh) anyways... they got kicked out. so then he didnt bother to contact me the first two weeks of her life and then when he found out i was planning on meeting RJ.. more about him later on.... he decided he wanted to start coming aroung. he brought his family to see Jayden and they totally disrespected my mother in her own house. once again acting ignorant! He hasnt given me any money for her at all but yet he rented a dodge charger to go home, and got two tatoos that he didnt need. what a loser! He would pop up at my house without telling us he was coming or he would be told not to come and he would come even after being told not to. Finally my daddy had enough so he ran him off and told him never to come back and called the cops. SO.. Jason will never be a part of our lives again.
Jayden has been quite ill. We had a big scare. When she eats she projectile vomits. im talking like exersist style. it just flys out of her mouth. she also didnt poop for like 5 days. it was sooo scary. anyways her pediatrician thought that she had pyloric stenosis, so she sent us to egleston childrens hospital in atlata to have some tests done, if she had it she would have had to have emergency surgery, but she didnt thank god. They told us that she just has gastrointestinal reflux really bad. So they gave us a bunch of medicine to try including zantac and some kind of vomiting medicine.. i forgot what its called but neither worked, so we tryed changing her formula (she wass exclusively breastfed) so we tried similac AR witch is made to be thicker to hold it down better, well that didnt work so we tried lactose free, and soy formula... neither one of those worked, so then we put her back on my breastmilk pumped with rice cereal added, and we give her prilosec to help with her heartburn from the reflux and it doesnt make it go away all the way but its alot better than it was before. other than that Jayden is an extremely happy baby and she smiled for the first time the other day and i was soo excited. shes starting to sleep longer now witch is great, and shes starting to make noises other than just crying
Now for more about RJ... I never thought that my life would take such a drastic turn in such a short period of time. I am on this site called Fubar.com, and i was always just on it for fun and to have something to do. Never in my wildest dreams did i ever think i would actually meet anyone from it. I was pregnant and Jason just wasnt making me happy anymore. Im not sure exactly what made me go into the stangs underground lounge, but i did one night and idk what, but something just made me add the DJ. i didnt even think anything of it, but something inside me knew that he was something special. As time went by we talked more and got closer and closer. He has been there for me thru everything with Jason, thru the birth of Jayden and thru everything else going on in my life. I feel like i have known him for sooo long. I have truely fallen in love with him. His name is RJ and he is sooo special to me. I almost broke up with him the other night because he lives sooo far away and i cant stand being so far away from him (he lives in michigan). Well i was talking to my bestfriend Ashley(his ex) and i was crying and telling her that i loved him soo much but i couldnt stand being away from him and it was hurting me and the amazing person she is... she bought me a plane ticket. Jayden and I are going to Michigan to be with RJ. we leave on Dec.3rd. only 34 days away and i cannot wait to be with the man of my dreams!!! Its gonna be so awesome to have our future little(actually its pretty big lmao) family together. Me, RJ, Jayden and his two beautiful little girls Trinity and Layla. YAY!!! I think this is my real chance at happiness. I know ive said that a million times before with Matt and Jason, but idk its just different this time. We have sooooo much in common and he just makes me soo happy. He doesnt try to change me or get me to do things i dont want to do, he accepts me and loves me for me and that is something no man has ever done. He is also willing to take me and my daughter and help me raise her as if she were his own and for that i am sooo greatful. He is so amazing! God i love that man
Well i guess thats all for now since its now 5:30am and i have written a book lmao.
