well here we go...my girlfriend broke up with me about 3 days ago and i cant help feel that im responsable for our break up. I dont why i feel that way, she tells me that its not my fault. I just feel that things are starting to go down hill. Ive basicly been leaning on my friends for comfort and been asking for advice on what to do because im so messed up right now i dont know what to do. They basicly tell me that i need to give her time alone and let her realize what she is missing. When i look at our realtionship i came to a conclusion that i might not have been the best boyfriend so if she is going to miss something its not going to be much. There is so many emotions going on right now that i cant stand it. She tells me that she doesnt see me as a boyfriend anymore, she says im more of a friend now (can u say kick to the face). I always thought that our relationship was one of the greatest thing in the world and i was happy to be apart of that. She broke up with me because she had feelings for a guy who i happen to know and before we started dating i knew she liked him but i figured we would get past that. Well its July 4 and i find out from a friend that she likes me and i decided to make my move and ask her out(what a perfect day to ask someone out) and well she said yes. We started out good we were both happy and we both began to open up to each other and we began talking about anything that came to mind. I remember the first day she told me those three words "I love You". We were both laying down on the couch and i was going through her phone and i saw her banner say "I <3 daniel". I asked her what that meant and she told me that i need to figure it out.lol. Well i told her that it meant i love daniel and she said i was right. I told her that i loved her to and that nothing was going to change that. Well a couple weeks passed by and well we werent seeing each other due to me not having a car and i felt horrible but she always told me that it was fine and she understood why i didnt have one. When i went to the hospital for getting hurt i wasnt alone, she was with me. The only person in my life to stay with me in the hospital to make sure that i was fine. When i saw how much she cared for me that day i realized that i had someone speacial and that i need to hang onto her. So now we've been going out for a month now and she is happy(atleast i thought so) and im happy. So one day she tells me that she wrote me a letter and that she was going to give it to me to read and that it wasnt anything bad. She gave me the letter and i read it and it was the greatest letter ive ever gotten, it was perfect. She made everything seem so great in my life and she made me feel like i was a somebody. Well now im in love with a girl(she hates being called woman) that is perfect i planed on getting a promise ring for her. My promise ring wasnt for marrige but it was a promise that i would always love her no matter what. I never got the chance to give it to her because of what happend but if she reads this LONG blog i hope she realizes how much i still love her. i just hope my attempts to get her back in my life doesnt push her farther away because i would rather have her in my life then not in it at all but it will be a hard recovery for me to get through and i dont think ill ever get through it but if u have any advise at all on what i should do please comment me or send me a message. i would really appreiciate it.And to the girl in my story i just hope u realize that u have something speacial waiting for u here next to me.
P.S. there is a saying that i think every guy needs to realize that isnt true "behind every great man is a great woman" this isnt true because i would rather have her beside me not behind me.
P.S.S-this was awhile back now so dont think this was recent..lol if u want to comment then go ahead
