DragonMaster Fears None's blog: "Reflections"

Some days it can be very hard for me........in fact most Saturdays seem to get harder every time I spend the day with my sons.....

Today, something happened and through something I said, my youngest broke into tears and well to say I felt very guilty is an understatement!!.....but we worked it through and got back on track with our day.....and as usual we went into town for our usual hunt for nothing in particular, it was while we were walking round outside we came across a group of people who were having a jam session with an assortment of drums and other percussion instruments, so like others we stood there and watched, feet tapping along  to the rhythm going on.....then a woman came up to us and handed my youngest son and me a shaker and a maraca, so without thinking the 2 of us looked at each other and just joined in, and for the next 20 minutes we just let our hair down and jammed along with the rest.......and at one point my son Ethan handed me the maraca he had and started to play one of the drums....... and boy...could he play...he just let his little heart get well and truly lost in the rhythm .....And in all this time, my eldest son sat there watching in amazement!!!.

When the session ended, one of the organizers who was also playing along commented on just how well she thought Ethan had done and said he was a natural. I was not only completely blown away by the whole jam session but by just how well Ethan had done!!

But as I say.....even though that was maybe one of my proudest moments of this year it was also very hard, yet again for me to say goodbye to them when I took them back home, knowing it will be another 2 weeks before I will see them again..............................................................

Dammit.......I MISS THEM!!!

taken the step to close all artwork and most blogs until I can sort them out fully when I get back......and to be honest....most are never looked at or rated anyway.... I have one blog about missing my son's...and no one botherd to read it....and that kinda hurts just alil and really tells me something!! I will open up when I have sorted but until then they stay shut.....sorry

A break for a bit.....will be back soon.....take care all

Maybe I should just walk away completely.....leave...time to really reflect on MY future once again.............

This song's true meaning is a man's struggle with his sexuality but this is not the reason I have posted it........at sometime, some point, we all face a struggle with a decision in our lives and we have to decide whether or not to take a chance and cross that bridge or stay on the safe yet predictable side mainly through the fear of what lies on the other side of the bridge........ To one young lady I say.....take that chance....you have seen what is on the other side of the bridge waiting for you........cross that bridge......and be with the man you truly love

Still Here.....

Broken dream!!

It is hard to sit and watch, but all I can do is......just be there, hope and pray that again it will pass and the determination to leave the past where it belongs gets stronger once more!!

is the time that I stop messing around and go for what I truly believe is the one thing that will make me totally happy once more!!. Yes I went through the wringer a few weeks back….scared that I was going to lose everything that was important to me and now I realise that I had to go through what I did, just so I could see what I might have lost and very nearly did lose, if I had not started to think things clearly. I have spent that time sorting out my own issues, laying all my ghosts to rest and finally stopped worrying about just what others think or say but that it really is all about what I think and feel…… So….yes…now really is THAT time!!