SDCALHOUN's blog: "real shit"

in dis world no is every promised to see the next day, anything could happen, pimp c died of what they called nautral causes, i could be here for one reason to spreed da word for a man they call jesus, who knows what could happen for some people this could be the lastime u hear from me for others they might get tired of me, but rather or not u see me or hear from me tomorrow will always come, some take life for granted some take love for granted those are known as gifts in my book and there gifts ill never give back, i appreciated everyone who comes in and out of my life cause if it wasnt for god my life would have never came to show some of u a better way of life, i admit im not perfect and i never will be but as long as i know i made somone happy i will always be me, take a note of this im only 23 i may or maynot make it to be 24 but ive come to realize i have someone bigger and stronger by my side he's saved my life more that 20 times, ill keep him close and school others, when my time comes i just want all u to remember, rather u see tomorow or not it will always come and eveyone u knew will still hold u in their hearts so live your life but live it right cuz one false move could quickly end your life.

my sister are my heart, they have been one call away rather day or nite. rather someone mad at me mad or i just wanted to grab da heat and put a nigga to sleep they kept me from fucking up, cuz of them the gloves were put up the rag has disappeared, no one is going to war i pray she dont disappear.

she said she loved me now i think it was a lie, she said she wanted to marry me but wont give me the time.my heart was broken, and she fucked wit mind, but i aint gonna sit and whine cuz now i know her kind. so my guard stays up and ill keep a nine by my side next time that gets tried somebody might be sayin goodbye.

this woman is stuck in my head i want more than just to have her in bed, even though we dont talk much she stays on my mind, everytime i wanna act a ass and start messing up stuff i picture her smile and my anger comes down,this feeling wont go away i wonder if she feels the same way i need her in my face day to day

Two weeks ago my two year old cuzzin had a tv fall on her and crack her skull, she had severe brain damage and the doctors thought she wouldnt make it. But a couple days ago something strange happened her wounds healed themselves and then she was takin off the medication that keep her in a coma. and now she has wakin up. shes doin better now and my lil thizzle baby will be back to normal soon. u might ask why i called her a thizzle baby, and i call her that because she use to do the thizzle dance with me and most of the people in cali know how that dance goes.

the home of the bloods and crips, niggas that not scare to empty a clip. where the police are no to be full of shit, the govenor just had to be a movie star and rich before he got his office, some of the dangerous street in the world are here, but dont be scared u can have alot of fun here. the beaches are as beautiful as Florida and keep alot of people happy,the weather is the best and wouldnt change it for the world. beautiful women are everywhere but every once in awhile you'll find some one with a jerry curl and even someone dance like a robot on the corner for fun.

I remember being just a lil boy playing wit toys, i remember waking up in da morning eating cereal and watching cartoons, i remember ignoring my mother until she shut up, i remember being the only child, i remember the first time i got to ride a bike even though it didnt turn out right, i remember when lincoln park was full of crips, i remeber my family get togethers always ended wit bloods versus crips , i remember being on da block on late nites wit all my homies and cuzzin, i remember when we almost took this niggas life, i remeber driving down the block and a mexican was following me, i remember fighting mexicans in front of my moms house in da middle of the nite, i remember the police chased me down the alley for a crime i didnt do, i remember chasin a nigga down the freeway cuz he thought he would hit my cuzzin wit a bat and get away, i remember my uncle telling me if i kept fucking up he'll request to get me a cell next to his, i remember making out wit my cuzzin girl, i remember that nigga had a jerry curl, i remember getting head from and older woman and she was good wit her tongue,i remember sipping lean and falling asleep in my front yard,i remember almost getting shot in da club, i remember kicking my aunt out her own house for running her mouth and disrepecting me,i remember getting high and buy 60 bucks worth of snacks, i remeber alot and now u will know what i remember.

My lil brother is mini me he tried to rob the ice cream man at the age of 3, told the niggas in the neighborhood if u fuck wit him u gotta answer to me, i paid my dues i earned my respect took it to the next level now i gotta change his lifestyle, make him his own man and dont make the mistakes i mad, so ill do what i can but the rest is in gods hand i hope baby calhoun can see the light get his act right and relize its his life

pops was a hoodsta my uncles were coasta i got the heart of both sides cuz ill run up on ya, empty my clip drag yo body to da riva, let it be known calhoun duece is fuckin home ready to take a niggas head off and send it to his home, catch me creepin through the southeast all day way to el cajon when dat window roll down u betta heat the ground the cuz im emptying clip round by day round, my pistol will never hit da ground but shell are all a round so keep my name out yo mouth or brains will be around yo house.