I give up, I don't care anymore. I have been used, abused, and sucked dry.I am sick of this pain, sick of the people around me, I am sick of the life I live everyday knowing that nothign positive comes of it! It is always and only pain everyday. I am tired of it. I have tried to end it several times and for some reason I am still alive!!!!! I have decided this is better left to another to end my pathetic misery and existence. $500 to whomever wants to kill me. Call me for instructions. Fuck the universe and everyone in it.