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Time Machine

Sometimes I wish I had a time machine. Then I could change my life Then maybe someone could love me. I could try harder to stop them, I could fight back even rougher, I could try to scream even louder, I could have made it tougher. Or I could delay my brother Stop hims before he finds me Then I'd be at rest finally Not turned into a whore for family. I could take a chance and tell Stop it before it kills in me The abilities to trust,to feel, To dream, to hope,to be happy. But i'll never have that time machine So i can't change my past. I can't fix my nightmares or finally feel hope at last.

Time can Forget

Time passes slowly no matter how it seems for an eternity can speed pass or float as apon a stream. Life has it's own time line and chooses it's own pace, short and fast, long and slow, it chooses it's own race. Circles of legends, follows the eons of space, myths and fantasies fall to no pace. But of everything mentioned there is one entity here that will be to the end of forever the sadness and joy of loves tears. For it was here before time and will be here when time forgets to share all of our moments happiness and regret.

The Worth

Live for my living, or else i shall die. That was my saying, till i saw your eyes. Then I saw into your soul and I felt your heartbeat. I knew I couldn't leave you for you would never let me. You held my steady gaze, stretched your hand out to mine, asking without question to share hearts for all time. So I gave you my love and accepted yours in return. Hoping that this would last and that I wouldn't get hurt. For love is worth a chance, and life worth living, music is worth dancing, and hearts worth giving.

The Joke of Death

What have you done, you lying ass bastard?!! You promised peace and quiet not this fucking disaster!!! You spoke of a calming quiet, the cool, soothing dark!!!! Not the wailing of my children or the breaking of their hearts! Yet here you stand... in your robe with your scythe and like that fake God above You only give me more strife!!! A peaceful death, HA, thats a riot A promise of the final end... in reality the beginning of pain that will never end!!!!!

Someone

I don't miss the ring That you placed on my hand And I never wanted for anything huge or grand. I don't miss the money that you brought in every month and I never yeaned for a different car every month. I do miss having someone to hold in the cold darkness of night to snuggle up to when it's scary and who will hold me tight. Someone to laugh with or to hold me when I cry someone who wont run away Someone to stand by my side. Someone willing to look inside and love me for who I am Someone whose as crazy as me someone willing to love and can. That someone was never you You proved it in so many ways you've never really loved me maybe someone will one day.

Scarred

Does it really matter if I have a scar on my face, does it scare you to think that I'm not perfect not pretty, an blase? Well I know it's a sight an that you always turn away that you don't want me no-more i hide from the day. If I'm not what you want now then please let me go.... let me have my solitude let me be alone. For what is left for me besides being tosses aside it's better for you to leave and for me to hide. I cry now at the site the freak I've become and know in my heart that I'm better off alone. No...no tears no gentle goodbyes you've done enough damage so why stay an lie? you take your leaving and I'll say he's gone out of my life no more harm.

Releasing the Pain

In my poems I write what I feel, and what i write about is vividly real. I cant lie when i write because its inside me. These feelings are stronger Than you'd ever believe. To let out the anguish the pain and sorrow, To put them on paper before they destroy tomorrow. This is my way of saving my life before the desolation kills me and brings more strife.

My Never Ending Story

The sun is setting in the west, that time has come again. I can feel the fear clawing, tearing, fighting to be revealed. Not long now..the pain will begin tears will collect & try to pour. The fear of what is going to happen when you come through that door. First the words that slice the soul, then the anger that lends him strength, finally the pain thats been unleashed, the beating that goes on at length. Then the fear quickens in your heart for the worst is yet to start.... when he realizes what he's done... and HE starts to fall apart. He cries and begs your forgiveness Says it will never happen again.... But the fear in your heart cries out, " This shit will never end. "

My friend or my love

Someone who will be there no matter what the price. Someone who truly cares no matter whose throat you slice. To stand beside you in times of joy or pain Without ulterior motives, with nothing to gain. Who will laugh at your jokes no matter how bad they are and still tell you they suck or if you've gone to far. To hold you when you cry, Worry when your sick, Smack ya when your crazy, To help choose what to pick. Are you my friend or my love? On this I must choose. for the best love you can have.. Is the love who's a friend too.
Asleep in the bed dreaming what kids dream about, something wakes you up you start to shout. Then you see your daddy, you think he's there to hold, instead he slaps you silly says "Do what you are told." He tears off your panties and you begin to cry "If you make a sound" he says "Then you'll have to die." Then you start to struggle as you feel him touch you there but you can not get away, is this a nightmare? I thought that he loved me, my daddy hurt me instead, used me like a little whore, I wished I was dead. So I went to the basement and climbed up on the shelves, put the wires around my neck so I could kill myself. If only he hadn't found me, if only he hadn't took me down, I'd be free of the nightmares, why did he cut me down? Then he started selling me to anyone with a beer, his own little daughter now lives in fear. I'm 38 years old now and still the nightmares reign, the terror of innocence lost, the crushing, horrifying pain.
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