Sometimes I wish
I had a time machine.
Then I could change my life
Then maybe someone could love me.
I could try harder to stop them,
I could fight back even rougher,
I could try to scream even louder,
I could have made it tougher.
Or I could delay my brother
Stop hims before he finds me
Then I'd be at rest finally
Not turned into a whore for family.
I could take a chance and tell
Stop it before it kills in me
The abilities to trust,to feel,
To dream, to hope,to be happy.
But i'll never have that time machine
So i can't change my past.
I can't fix my nightmares
or finally feel hope at last. 
