Kenners's blog: "Rants and Poems"

One far away from all and everything I fear.

I wish this song would sing inside for all and evermore.

I wish I could find the words for her that I adore.

I know you know I love you and I know you know I can.

Even if this love isn't just about a woman and a man.

It's about that everything that we've always thought.

It's about that thing inside for which nobody has fought.

I think you can see it now that your eyes are wide.

I know that I can push the thought deep in your inside.

Please keep it safe for me and wrap it up in care.

Keep it away from everything that makes life unfair.

I really hope you find your way down the path to me.

I think that if you lose your way you've finally begun to see.

Nothing is the way you've thought and it's so beautiful in here.

When you finally felt it I know in your eye there welled a tear.

It streaked across your pretty cheek and down onto your shirt.

You let go of all within that for you has always hurt.

Please don't turn away from me because you know me now.

If you truly let me lead I'll show you answers more than how.

Dance into the starlight where we were found again.

Where we can be free of all of our old and dragging sin.

I think I think I know this time that it isn't fake.

I know I think I know this time that I'm finally awake.

Now that the sleep is gone from me I'm not quite as sad.

Because my reality is like no other dream I've ever had.

Even so I see your face in the all of everything I do.

I can hardly stand to wait though I know I must.

Waiting is alright this time because this isn't lust.

We share every flaw we have and our youthful look.

Perhaps this is our prize for everything they took.

I hope you never leave my side and I hope you know I can't.

I hope that it shows real true by this loving rant.

If nothing else will save us I know that this love will.

Maybe those holes left all in us might finally begin to heal.

I hope this is the first of a great many brightly light filled note.

You make my heart sing daily and my mind begin to float.

Written in the morning of a day I never ever thought would come.

This is the first note written in pain yet still I don't want the numb.

It was dark but shadow clones made spectacles on the walls.

There was a dead silence and sounds of sleep creeping down the halls.

Warm and heart's hard beating we played in the glow of the nightly news.

Her outline cast struck my mind and forever burned in my mind a muse.

It's hard now so long from then to find all the words I should use.

Heartache after all the long nights have surely left upon me their bruise.

Though, in the late sinking hours I can still see her undulating.

All those dark desires that then and always needed sating. 

I thought they would fade as the years dripped by

Though, I can still remember the taste of her thigh

Biting skin and stripping away all the needless shell.

Thinking about it now will always give a stinging hell.

Piercing my mind and making me squirm here within my skin.

My willpower to control myself and act according forever wearing thin.

I don't know how long I can contain it and keep the ferocity at bay.

I know there has to be something I can do some other simple way.

The thoughts keep torturing me nightly and filling all my dreams.

Maybe, just maybe, it's not quite as bad as to me it always seems.

I no longer look to see if I'm coming back.

Just now I feel as cold as I could ever be.

I try to hide the icy patch deep inside of me.

No longer can I hide it as it covers me in frost.

That me that used to smile is now completely lost.

I just remain to look ahead and peer on down the road.

I think I have gone into that fuck everything mode.

Counting down the minutes until they turn into days.

I watch the weeks go passed but the feeling stays.

After months and years have gone I still reside...

I stay so you can say that all I've done is lied.

It wasn't a lie before but now it just might be.

Which is why I let you go so of the ice you may be free.

Filled with thoughts of levity forever from the spout.

They trickle through the bad times and speckle oblivion.

The stuff that lies between what I have always gone and done.

I sees the blue stretch out away from me.

Clouds spread through all that i can see.

It's in this time I forget that I'm just like you.

I see true happiness there despite that all I do.

I wonder if I'll live here when the end is come.

I wonder if I'll feel the pain or finally be numb.

Others speak of warmth that they find in the light.

Though, my fantasy isn't ever quite as bright.

I like the darkness and the stretching shade.

I like the lights of the night wherein we're all laid.

I want to see the spacious green and swirl it with the black.

I want to go to that place for me never to come back.