TracyBama's blog: "random thoughts from my head..."

ok i just realized something and it's kinda embarassing considering how old i am....but ya know, a man will say an do anything to get in yer panties. Well, get you out of them rather. now i don't know why this surprises me at all really....i mean for the most part they all think with mr. winkie....but i never realized how gullible I guess i am....i know all this seems like psychotic ramblings from a person with no clue, but i do have a clue lol, they just hit me at odd times.....just had too much stuff goin on in my life at the moment and trying to keep too many balls in the air i guess you could say.....ohhhh well, i will ramble more later...<33333333

Ok......now who ever it is that is crushin on me just needs to come on and tell me..... the suspense is killing me = )~~~~

well i was right.....what was meant to be was to be....and i don't think it could have worked out for the better.......first time in quite a long while that i feel pretty damned happy......maybe i went about it the wrong way but hey, ya gotta do what ya gotta do and sometimes it just feels to g/d good to quit...i don't know where it will lead, or if it will lead anywhere for that matter...but as long as the status quo remains quo...i don't think it will be a bad thing at all...it's just amazing that a mean bitch like me and be made to feel good about ME! Giddy as a school girl and almost as stupid.... ohhh well lemme quit while im ahead of the game....peace love and orgasms for everyone!

dazed and confused feeling things i should not because i should not feel at all........it's not supposed to be like this........i thought i was beyond it all.......able to control it all...be hard and cold, non-feeling....i guess i was wrong...now, whatever am i to do? i don't like feeling like this.....why do i feel at all? more than likely it will crash all around me and leave me even more jaded and hateful torward all...ahhhh well.....what will be will and i don't guess i can change it........karma is a bitch and a half......more later