dazed and confused feeling things i should not because i should not feel at all........it's not supposed to be like this........i thought i was beyond it all.......able to control it all...be hard and cold, non-feeling....i guess i was wrong...now, whatever am i to do? i don't like feeling like this.....why do i feel at all? more than likely it will crash all around me and leave me even more jaded and hateful torward all...ahhhh well.....what will be will and i don't guess i can change it........karma is a bitch and a half......more later
