luvitall's blog: "Ramblings"

Am looking for a really good girl on girl pic to email my bf to brighten his day(and mine as well...lol!!). Anyone able to help at all??

I'm curious...does anyone out there really know the differences between the Scotish and the Irish?They sound so much alike and they have so many other things in common....are they related in someway at all...they are very close together geographically....any clue as to how to cultures so very close in distance and many other ways are very separate???I would love to know!!

Please read my previous blog...thanks!

Letting anyone who cares know....I'm usually not on the puter on the weekends and...lately I've been a little preoccupied with other things and haven't had time to check in or check up on my 'real' friends.So sorry.Haven't tried to ignore...just been busy.Will catch up with all next week. Kisses!

Today is my mother's birthday...the first one we've had to deal with since she died.Is harder than what I expected.Not liking it.And why is everyone screwing with me today of all days?? LOL...sort of.Just had to vent.I'm just not into being nice and all....but I am trying!If I have ignored you in the last 3 days or so...am sorry and will make up for it.Right now,I just want to sleep...but, that is not what everyone else has in mind for me...oh well....

It comes...when you least expect it...you know why...you see the signs,but ignore them.Pain...confussion....hate....run if you can,but oh my goddess, you can't! The sun shines...your soul rains....lightning...thunder.....and still that damn sun shines!! You fight...you struggle....why?you take a deep breathe,jump in and start over....why? Days drag on...everyone does their thing and I am worthless... Night moves in and I awake to nightmares and dreams...no one believes or understands... welcome to my real world....I can't control it or fight it or turn it on or off...a great day can crash in a moment...a moment can sparkle in a lifetime..... I just lost more than half of anyone reading this....lol...no worries....lost myself.....

I have this really strange fantasy....my bf has his in another woman while I'm licking her and him....anyone ever done this...is it possible...I'm insane...of course, want the favor returned!!!

Ok...how can I put my music on here if the process is disabled and has been??!!??

Ok...am being so selfish here. My dad is dating...let me start over...My mother was diagnosed with cancer and less than a year later, she was dead...last April.He's kind of dating now...which I know is really awesome for him and all....It's just really weird for me and I guess that some of it comes from the way he's acting about it all.I want him to be happy and go on and stuff...I just need a moment to freak out without anyone telling me that he deserves or whatever...I need to just be ok feeling the way that I'm feeling...he has no clue...don't want him to. Ok....enough rambling...took the long way home from the store today...almost could 'feel' spring.The sun has changed it's path a bit and it was warmer than it's been in a long time.Rode around with my window down,stereo blasting and heater going strong...lol

Blogs,journals,diaries,...should be called ramblings.I never blog or think straight or whatever...especially speak.....I ramble!Random thoughts and events and thoughts on events that I don't even seem to control in anyway whatsoever! My baby sister just had her first baby(27 and still living at home with recently widowed dad).Poor little one spent a few days in NICU.Tonight,they are both home and hopefully doing well.Was in delivery room...cord was around her neck when she came into this world...so before her birth,during and after,she had troubles.I will do all that I can to make sure life is better for her. Am grounded,as my transportation is broken...not enjoying that so much...funny...have a way out,won't take it...lose the way out,miss it! Guess I will go now....need sleep,although,not really sure just why.....