Hello everyone,
Well as u all know my bf and I are still seperated hes in DK and I am back in the states...... He should be coming back in Sept if I dont mess it all up..... I keep pushing him away.... more and more each day.... He is an amazing man he would do anything for me.... But one thing I seem to just push him away in things that I say or do ...... What the hell am I thinking everyone He is all that I have wanted and then some...... I feel as though i dont deserve him and why would he love me ...... we come from two different worlds ..... I am the girl from the other side of the track.......I dont have anything to give him but my love... I cant do for him like i would love to ..... I dont know if its cuz of the distance r if its cuz I am so scared that I just push him away or is it both..... We have been through so much shit in the time we been togather more then i have with anyone.......He truly is my best friend and I dont wanna lose him but if I keep doing this I will..... I need him .... He is the one that i cant live without..... but why do I keep pushing him away :(....... I love him more then i have ever loved anyone....... I dont understand .... :(
