everything was on-going--but it seemed to come to a head right before the day of atonement 6 days ago. i was getting ignored so badly--i needed to talk-nothing special-i needed to give attention and to receive it for my well-being--many of you were so there for me as always-but i felt so ignored.when i needed sympathy and acceptance i was getting one word responses--i felt so darn useless
then the day of atonement came--pretty much 25 hours of silence and prayer and well lots of hating on myself--thinking of how horrible i must have been to have suffered so. i really couldn't return here until now.
and to add to it all--sometime during the holiday -some hacker got on to my web-site and posted news of my death--they put the wrong year of my birth and spelled 'riddance' wrong. i couldn't delete it. i thought what the heck--many don't care if i'm living or dead any way.
but please check it out
www.gangstarabbi.com
at least i know i'm noteworthy albeit it in a bad way to someone on this world wide web
love ya's--all who still love me--and those who hate me as well
