Sometimes it is easy to forget those who are supose to be important when they are not there all the time. Then it becomes a habbit to always put them last. You leave them feeling like they don't matter near as much as anything else in your life. Sometimes you may not know you are doing this and therefore don't know the effects is has on others. It leaves them feeling left out and like they feel like their not worthy enough of your love or your time. When you make a list of your life and those in it, it is so important to try to stick to it. Otherwise you are pushing out the things and the people that matter the most. I wish sometimes I was just atleast closer to the top of the list. I find I am usually sitting down here at the bottom all alone. I would atleast feel that those around me loved and cared for me as much as they say they do. I wouldn't have to cover how much it really does hurt to save the argument and to keep from making anyone mad. I wouldn't have to smile through the hurt and pain to mask the reallity. I wouldn't have to cry myself to sleep at night because I feel like I don't matter. Or my feelings either. Take a look around you and pay closer attention to how you go about your list because chances are you are leaving someone behind without even realizing it. Try to be more sympathetic to those you hurt in the long run. I deal with this with a lot of people and I also have a lot of people tell me they feel they are in the same position. We all have schedules to keep and things to be done, but don't forget those who are most important in your lives first. Try not forgeting you are part of someone else's priority list and they don't forget you or leave you out. Achknowledge the fact that sometimes your not going to be as important as some things all the time, because sometimes they just can't help it. But it shouldn't be like this all the time.
I wrote this piece because just in the last month I have had many others say these very same things to me. I have also felt this way a lot. While I try to be a little more understanding to it, others are not. I can mask how I feel to avoid conflict, But in the end it doesn't help my feelings. I still hurt inside I just try not to show it. But as always I will just move on because I don't want to lose what I have. If you are strong enough to do this then I give you two thumbs up! If you are not, then it is time to try to figure out a way to talk to those who make you feel this way without conflict. Good Luck!
@}-{-- Tammy Rose Duysen --}-{@
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