I am not a perfect man. Perfection has alluded me until i fell in love with you.I want you as my everything because you make my everything better. I've sensed you'd rather me be more hard... That's not me with us... I don't want that. i want your kisses. i want your hugs. you make me want more time just to feel you.i've never been sure how you feel about me until you're pissed. Even when i'm mad at you i don't ever want to give you the impression i'm not trusting you. I don't yell, i don't beat, i'm not accusing you of anything..I trust tou. I get jealous alot more then you know and i hate it.i look and i get jealous. i talk and i get jealous. i'm not there and u say shit and the fact i'm not there..i get jealous.it replays in my head over and over. I would never want to desrespect you in any form. You're my baby and i love you with every ounce of my heart. the thought of not being your man makes me ill. I don't know what's in your head. I had to switch pictures on my phone because seeing you hurt to much.you told me you loved me.i mainly hear i'm dumb and stupid. You love me i haven't heard in months.are you done? do i need to adjust to being alone again? do you not want me as your man anymore? i don't know how to reach you anymore. you are distant and talking seems like a chore you're bored of.we seldom smile, we tip toe... we don't laugh, we argue. What we were seems like a memory that is far gone and it's impossible to get back. IS THIS IT? Do you really want us as you and i? Instead of US? I don't ever want to disrespect you. As long as you can respect me, and I don't always feel you do. I don't think you realize how negative you can be towards me. i'm a softy.i want my sweet side to rule. I don't want to be an ass or known as one.I want to be able to joke, but i'm stupid and dumb daily, I don't get the opposite. I need to know if you want or don't want US. Am i important enough to you to admit you love me? OR are you tired and want me out of your life? i want you as my wife, that's never changed. My wife or out of you life is up to you.Where we go from here is your call. I love you and I want you to pick ME and US, but I can't control your choice.
I'm here and still your man until you don't want me...E.D.M.L.
