DJ ROB BLACK WOLF OF MISSOURI's blog: "poems"

I AM A LOST SOUL THAT TRAVELS THE HWYS OF THE COUNTRY SIDE LOST AND EMPTY SINCE YOU LEFT AND I HAVE LOST YOU. THE HWY IS MY PRISON NOW AND WILL BE UNTILL THE DAY I DRAW MY LAST BREATH. THE HWY GOD HAS GOTTEN HIS CLAWS INTO ME AND WONT LET GO. I TRAVEL ALONE IN THE DARKNESS NEVER STAYING IN ONE PLACE AND NEVER GETTING ATTACHED TO ANYONE OR ANYTHING . I AM THE JUST A LOST SOUL TRAVELING THE LONG NEVER ENDING HWY NEVER TO KNOW HOW LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN WITH YOU . MY LIFE IS ON THE ROAD NOW BUT MY HEART IS NOT WITH ME IT IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE WITH YOU 

I SIT IN THE SHADOWS WATCHING YOU FROM A DISTANCE. WHILE I WATCH YOU I SO WANT TO WALK UP AND TELL YOU THAT IM STILL YOURS WITH ALL MY BEING. BUT I CANT MOVE FOR FEAR OF GETTING BURNT BY THE LIGHT THAT SURROUNDS YOU. WHEN I DO START TO TAKE A STEP TOWARDS YOU I SEE ANTOHER WALK UP TO YOU AND YOU PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE. I ASK MYSELF IF IT IS A TRUE SMILE OR A FRONT. AS I LOOK AT YOU I WONDER IF YOU EVER THINK OF ME OR IF YOU EVEN MISS BEING IN MY ARMS. I BLEED DEEPLY FROM THE WOUNDS CAUSED BY THE BROKEN HEART BARELY BEATING IN MY CHEST. JUST CAUSE OF A MISTAKE I HAD DONE. THE GODDS BROUGHT YOU INTO MY LIFE ONCE AGAIN AND WAKE ME UP INSIDE AND THEN POOF YOUR GONE AGIN BEAVLING ME WITH MORE EMPTINES THEN BEFORE. WHEN I LAY DOWN FOR MY NIGHTLY SLUMBER I PRAY TO THE GODDS TO KEEP YOU SAFE AND TO WATCH OVER YOU. AS I ENTER THE DREAM WORL I HEAR YOUR VOICE SAYING " GOOD NIGHT MY LOVE. SLEEP WELL " MY EYE FILL WITH TEARS OF BLOOD CAUSE I KNOW IT IS MY MIND PLAYING TRICKS ON ME. THEN AS I AWAKE INTO THE DAYLIGHT HOURS I CAN SWEAR I SEE YOU WALKING AWAY AS IF YOU HAD STOOD OVER ME AND WATCHING AND PROTECTING ME ALL THREW THE NIGHT TIME. I GO AND WATCH YOU AGAIN FROM THE SHADOWS FOR YET ANOTHER DAY HOPEING TO GET A SIGN THAT IM STILL IN YOUR HEART. I KNOW MY HEART AND SOUL IS STILL YOURS AND ALWAYS WILL BE. AS I LET OUT A HOWL TO SAY I LOVE YOU STILL MY LOVE I SLIDE FURTHER BACK INTO THE SHADOWS TO NOT BE SEEN

i look at your picture with tears in my eyes. i remember all of promises that was made by both. i remember all the good times as well. then i remember all the pain that i caused you. i think to myself that i lost the most inportant and best thing that ever happened to me. i will love you always even as.  draw my last breath. i will die alone if i cant have the life we had when we was together. your all i think about your all i dream about

i love you with all my heart and soul. there is no end to my love for you. when we are togeht my life is full of happyness. now that you have shut me out of your life. i feel so clod and empty on the inside like it did before you came into my life . you were my only reason for living. i now have no reason for staying in this world. the pain that i caused you and the pain of looseing you is to much for me to bear

the love of my life you have always been on my mind. i cant express how sorry i am for all the pain that i have caused to you my love. i know for what i have done is unforgivable. i just pray to the gods that one day that we can move on from teh past. i wish you would let me prove how much you mean to m. if that day never comes then i shall die alone with a bleeding lonely heart

as the heart beats for one person and one person only. the heart bleeds form the wounds inflickted upon it by the pain its owner has inflicted upon another. the heart wishes that there was away to fix the other heart it was connected with. the heart wishes to one day to be connected with the heart it was connected wtih before the bleeding heart wantes to give up. something just keeps that bleeding heart going

from the frist day we meet you told me you wished that one da

i sit here wiht thoughts of you in my head day after day

i wish i could tell you what is in my heart for you

i see your face in my sleep and everywhere i look

i relize i lost the best thing in my life

my world is so empty and meaningless without you

without you in my life i am nothing but a shell

you filled my life with joy light and happiness and i let it all go

i love you with all my heart and soul

would walk threw the deepest depths of hell and back just to prove my love

i am affaid to approach you cuase i know i would screw up on trying to put how i feel into words

your my one and only true love and the only one i want to be with

I LOVE YOU MY LOVE YOUR MY WOLD AND ONLY REASON FOR BREATHING

I WILL ALWAYS BEEN WAITING IN THE SHADOWS MY LOVE MY ANGEL

i lay here night after night. with the thoughts of you in my head. i swear there are times i feel you are still laying there with me. i still can feel your soft loving touch and smell your sweet perphume. i look around and relize your not there with me and i relize it was just my hopes. i look around and the mememories of our life together comes rushing back. i start to cry cause i relize that im still in love with you and why i was in love with you

i sit here day after day wondering why i did the things i did. i wonder day after day why i just didnt tell you that i love you with all my heart and soul and need you more then anything in my life and that you was the only one for me. i sit here staring at your picture wondering what my life would be like if i would have said what realy needed to be said instead of letting the hurtful words come out. i wonder what is instore for me now that i have destroied the most important thing in my life cause i was to bullheaded to say. " I love you my love with all my heart and soul... I also need you in my life cause i am nothing without you in my life...

I sit and look at your picture everyday. i relize i have lost the best thing that had ever happened to me. i lost t he woman i love more then life itself. I have made mistakes in my life the worst one was pushing you away. and just stand there while you walk away off into the sunset. the sun has never came back up in my world. I will always love you. i look ahead with tears in my eyes wish to see you come walking back to me. I lay bed down for the night looking at your picture and rub your ring i wear around my neck givein both of them a kiss before i drift off to sleep to hold you in my arms in my dreams. i know when i awake it  will just be a dream nothing more. I look at the sky and pray that you know how sorry i am and how much i miss you and love you. your my only love and the only person i want to be with. i have relized how much i need you and want you my love. so as i lay down this evening i will pray to the godds and goddess that my dreams come true someday but wont give up my love for you for nothing in the world and beyound. I LOVE YOU MY LOVE