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In 11 days it will be 6 years
I remember as if it was yesterday, I remember all of the tears
I remember the high school choir singing "Amazing Grace" at your grave
Guess they had to sing one last song to the girl who the paramedics could not save
I remember seeing hundreds of people in the church because it was standing room only
Then remembering the words that you had said: "what if people don't like me?"
Apparently you were loved more than you even knew
Because there was a 4 mile funeral procession just for you
I also remember seeing your class mates holding onto one another, with tears flooding their face
Then the preacher, who kept saying "dry your tears, for she is with the lord now, and is in a better place"
Hard to believe it's been 6 years without you
And here I am still wondering what am I suppose to do.
Broken Soul
As the tears stream down my face
knowing no one will ever take your place
my heart breaks for the ones who know my pain
cuz this pain hurts like hell, and they will never be the same
your child is not suppose to die before you
They were suppose to to grow old, and had many things left to do
loosing a child is the worst pain you could ever feel
so you wake up every morning..hoping it was a bad dream, that it wasn't real
but then reality comes crashing in
and then all the tears start flooding your face again
sometimes you cry so hard you just can't breathe
screaming at God "why did you do this to me?"
as we look in that coffin and stare upon their face
we wished God would swap our place
i don't think i will ever heal from this
Living my life with such remiss
Darkness Calls
by Sierra Myst
Death can give you things, that life can not bring
Mostly it is the end of all internal suffering
The pain in your soul continues to grow with despair
Until eventually you no longer care
You no longer care about the future or what might be
All you feel is pain, like you are drowing in the sea
You hear voices whispering in your head
On how much less you would be hurting if you were already dead
Then Darkness calls you, telling you that you are not alone
Just go ahead and end it all, and then you will be home
The scaring of your soul
Makes you feel so old
Like you should already be old and grey
No wonder you don't want to live your life this way
Darkness calls, giving you many ideas on how to end your pain
Be it bullets, pills, or blades
Each day Darkness calls with an even louder ring
But if I answer, I know the sadness it will bring
Sadness to those who love and care for me
When Darkness calls, I wish there was somewhere else I could be
hmm the thoughts of him what can i say?
his words, his smile brighten up my day
my heart is soley his
i would be lucky just to have one kiss
will he ever know how much he means to me?
guess we will just have to wait and see
i long to be in his arms, if only for a minute
but i want more, i don't want that as my limit
I love him more than he could ever know
my love is sometimes hard to show
he makes my heart feel full and light
maybe he can bring me back to life
broken promises and shattered dreams
wishing things weren't as they seem
put on a fake smile and try to make yourself believe when you say
tomorrow will be a better day
Lying to yourself is such a shame
but what else can you do in order to survive this game
you sit back and think of the past few years
while fighting back all of the tears
with her on your mind, each day and night
it's really hard to want to stay here and fight
but you stay and fight for her
even tho days sometimes pass like a blur
she wouldn't want you to hurt this way
she would even tell you that everything will be ok
life is so hard now without you my darling jessie
but you know this, cuz you are looking down from heaven on me.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VvGYYg40Ijw&feature=related
as i sit herein the darkness
all i can thinkis about you
how could god take you from me
how dare he take the one thing that meant everything to me
how am i suppose to go on
how am i suppose to breathe
how am i suppose to live without you? you were my everything
i lived FOR youi was suppose to protect you
i was suppose to make you have a better life
i was going to make your life more important than mine
now how am isuppose to live without you?
you were my everything
how can i go on?
how can i breathe
how can i love?
how can i be without you?
what am i suppose to do?
Some songs feel like that they have be written for yourself....
"Leave Out All The Rest"
by Linkin Park
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
Alas your gone once again
All the tears that I have are no longer being held within
The heart that I had is shattered and gone
And here I am sitting all alone
Remembering all the good times that we shared
And how convinced I was that you actually cared
I hope one day you will look back and cry
Cause all I want to do is cuddle up and die
For today I lay my heart to rest
You are the one who taught me that the best
Love is highly overrated
Forevermore I will be so jaded
With all the hurt and the pain
Let my cold heart begin to reign
For no one else will ever get so close
Remember when you gave me the rose
Oh the smile I had on my face I had to put it in a glass, cause I didn't have a vase
On the sink it sat and grew
Just like my feelings I had for you
But the rose just died and withered away
Just like my love for you will, hopefully.. someday
To never feel such pain again
That is the ultimate goal in the end
Here we go again
Looking at the end
The end of a love that was so true
Guess it scared the hell out of you
The touch of your hands and your kiss
That is what I will mostly miss
To see your smile and hear your laughter
Now I really know there is no happily ever after
