(first of all this isn't a cry for help or a suicide attempt...it was an accident, i shouldn't have taken so many but i thought i could handle them)
so...unintentionally i took waaaaaay too many darvocet yesterday and had a near death experience this morning about 4am. i woke up freezing but sweating, my eye sight was all fucked up, and i couldn't walk straight to save me, i found the bathroom and puked for about an hour....and fell asleep there til my roommate just woke me up about an hour ago. he shook me awake because my skin was faded gray and he thought i was dead! he was crying when i opened my eyes... i'm scared to go to the doctor now....i never want to see opiates ever again. i'm still shaky from the side effects and wore out from the strain on my body...
i'm not writing for u to pity me, but to understand...i will never ever pop pills after that again. i really thought i was going to die on the floor of my bathroom this morning, cold, scared, and all alone...i dunt wanna end it like that.
♥
jess
