Hello my beloved fu-friends. After feeling much hate towards the Fu, and the game players, manipulators and liars that scurry under rocks when the sun comes up in this place.... I have dropped the gauntlet and moved along in my silly little polyamorous life.
2008, was the most f*cked up year to date for me to say the least.... Travel with my work took me to Orange county and took away my frequent flyer miles, I let my ex-boyfriend from 12 years ago back into my life (against my better judgment of not ever ever letting people who have hurt me back into my life for a second chance and he proved he was not worthy of that second opportunity), The Husband took off for Iraq in May (this isn't usually a bad thing but lots of bad things ensued once he was gone), My house caught fire in July sending me and the kitties scurrying frantically for new living space after the inlaws turned us down, I lost my super lucrative job and have been on the hunt for a new one for 6 months now with no luck, I had some altercations that I dont care to get into detail about with the law, Tax season was not kind to us this year, my car was broken into twice and an iphone had to be replaced along with GPS system, a new alarm system had to be installed, my computer crashed beyond repair with every document on it that I have ever created in my line of work that are utilized to prove I know how to do my work in an interview, a backup harddrive crashed, my mother was side swiped in the car that I bought her and pay the insurance for by a woman that had no insurance, my husband got home from Iraq and was rear-ended by someone doing 60 mph that ends up having no insurance whatsoever and our vehicle needs repairs, Months after the house burned and the contractors are stalled in completing repairs due to some duct work that needs to be replaced that was not anticipated my EMPTY house (as everything was moved out to ease construction) was broken into?? and everything that was left in the garage worth any money (toolbox, electric kitty litter box, old busted Microwave...) was lined up ready to be carted off at a more convenient time considering NO ONE is at the effin house anymore to actually stop this procedure... and last but certainly not lease- my entire reason for hating on the Fu and really considering getting off this mechanism for a while is.... My exbf who became my bf lied to me about cheating on me with a girl here on fubar and became my exbf again (& because of the lying, the cheating, the disrespect of my feelings and my rules about lying by the both of them and the manipulating game that he and she both played on me he will never be allowed in the circle of trust ever again).
It has been a lot to over come in what seems to be such a short time. But I am actually back on my feet, things are starting to turn around a good bit. Things are progressing to the point of getting better, I have made some really good friends this year that have stuck beside me through out this horrible stuff and I am even grateful to an extent that the exbf/bf/exbf came into my life for a brief period to provide a distraction from what was messing with my head at the time. I firmly believe that people come into our lives for a reason, and I am finding they go for a reason as well. When their purpose is served, sometimes some people just need to go away so that we can get back on track with the lessons learned and a resolution to be a better person ourselves.
My new years resolution is to make a career change, forgive myself for things I did wrong that hurt others and try to make amends for those things, tap into the more positive side of my energy moving forward with the new year and embracing who I am more steadfastly with conviction knowing that I am a good and honorable person that has a lot to offer those who come across me in their lifetime.
Much love to all of you on this New Years Eve. May you be well, May you define resolutions for your New Year that you can achieve and may we all cross paths soon.
*kttn*
