You know how sometimes you go to bed with a heavy heart and hope to wake up with the feeling gone and everything back to normal?Well i went to bed with a heavy heart and woke up with one.I feel ashamed for the way I feel but i dont know how to deal with it.I know how to fix this problem so i never have these feelings again but not having him in life is not an option never has been never will be.Im just confused i have someone who really cares for me and i care for him too but im afraid of so many things i just dont know what to do anymore.Im just ranting this morning so i apologize if anything i've just said makes no sense whatsoever.
