Do You Want Me Say Please's blog: "Original songs and poems by me"

You broke my heart One too many times Now you have crossed the line Abandoned me once, abandoned me twice I thought your unconditional love was mine I am telling you now up straight That you are too late The damage is done And no one has won But I wash my hands of you To build my life anew Go on without you by my side You are my demise You bring me down without a care It's much more than I can bare Moving on is what I need to do So this is Goodbye To You One day you will be judged by Him And maybe He is able to forgive The sins of betraying your blood The one person you are supposed to love A hole in my heart will be no more Flying high in the sky, I will soar The tears I shed will be no longer Because of it I will be stronger And for that I want to Thank You Not for the tears and not for the heartache Or the heartbreak But because you showed me what not to be And I can decide what is me I know I don't want to be like you Because my heart is filled with love Something you will never be capable of You built your life on hate But I believe in fate What has happened made me see the light I will not stand up and fight I am a bigger person than that So I will walk away with what I had learned The bridges are burned Moving on is what I need to do So this is Goodbye To You

An Angel stands alone In the darkness she is thrown She succumbs to her fears Barely an echo, she hears Walking alone in the night Looking for a glimmer of light Alone in the dark she awaits Not ready to admit her fate Not sure of what is real Not sure of what to feel Remembering a day long ago in the past Trying to let go, at last Looking to the stars and moon Wondering if it'll be the end soon An end to the horror and pain It's your loss, her gain And how true, she can grow from this Not to say, it will be missed And better off she is without you Let her go and start anew The pain that was caused, too much to bear Let her be, with her despair Nothing can be done to undo the heartache The choice was your mistake Should have held her up high So she could learn how to fly Instead her spirit broken in two Now there is nothing more to do So just turn around And leave without a sound

Overcome with Darkness Feeling only Sadness A beating heart Bleeds in Pain Till there is nothing left to Drain Left out in the cold With no one to hold Nothing left but fear And a solitary tear No one to blame A Dying Flame A life diminished A life unfinished A burning Hole left in her heart Already Torn apart A Life that shouldn't have been Torn Nothing left to do but Mourn The Anger builds inside Never to Subside All she wanted was Someone to Love Someone to hold her Above But her Breath was Taken She was Badly mistaken Now Gasping for air Hoping someone will Care Hoping to not be Alone Living only what she was shown A shot in the Dark came her way Now left Astray Nowhere left to turn Nothing left to Learn Once a Forgiving soul Is nothing but an Empty hole Pretending to be Someone she's not Wondering if they forgot A life led in what felt like a Prison Trying to find a Reason For growing up in a Hell A Lie is all she can Tell Now Alone and scared With no one who cared Bottling up her Feelings Waiting for her Healing Asking God what she should do Asking Him if He knew That her Life would be like this What did she miss Could it be all her Fault An answer is all she Sought

As the tears start to dry Once again she begins to cry Trying to figure out what went wrong While trying to stay strong All hope seems lost Because once again she was crossed Lied to and deceived Much more than she can conceive Pain burning up inside No where to run and hide Living her life day to day As the skies above turn grey The rain starts to pour down Feeling like she is going to drown Full of hurt and confused Her already boken soul left bruised Only needing someone to listen Everything being so distant Not knowing what to do Waiting for something new Nothing seems to appear As more things disappear Into the cold dark night Without a glimmer of light Unaware of what the future will bring Trying to fly on a Broken Wing

The hurt went so deep Lies no longer able to keep A life full of shame Always turns out the same The last petal to fall Looking for someplace to crawl A battle going on inside No one there to confide A lonely soul floating about Filled with nothing but doubt All that is heard are the screams Of all of the shattered dreams A time remembered once of happiness Now washed away by sadness A time long ago There was somewhere to go That memory now past No longer able to last Nothing left but sorrow Not sure what is in store for tomorrow Looking for a better way A reason to stay A heart filled with dispair Once was filled with care All of that now gone Trying to move on The pain that was caused, just too much Just trying to find something to touch Waiting for a calling To somehow stop falling

As I sit in the Dark Waiting for a Spark A tear streams down my face Looking for another place A Life of torment & pain Nothing will ever be the same Running scared My open soul bared Where does my journey begin Where does my journey end The only place I have left to look is within A place I have never been I pray to the Heavens Above To please fill me with love Get me through another day Please don't let me walk astray Keep in a straight line And I know, then, I will be fine The journey has begun It will never be done I keep my past close at heart Even though it tore me apart But without it, I wouldn't be me However, I will be set free

Standing all alone With nowhere to go Left stranded Once again branded I won't let you in me Just leave and let me be Stop with the hurting and pain Stop the tears from falling like rain One day my sun will shine And I know that I will be fine I won't let you take me for another ride All you ever did was lie Just turn around Without making a sound Just please walk away I don't want you to stay You drained all of my hope I am at the end of my rope I don't need you here You are my worst fear Please don't look back It's time for you to pack Your image fades from my mind There are no more ties that blind I thought blood was thicker than water But you decided you would faulter I have nothing left to say Except just please walk away

Take a moment to stop and listen to the rain I want to know if you feel my pain Take a moment to stop and listen to the wind I want to know if you realized you sinned Take a moment to stop and listen to the thunder I want to know if you realize my heart is sunder Take a moment to stop and listen to the lightning I want to know do you feel my throat tightening Take a moment to stop and look in the mirror I want to know if your mind is becoming clearer Take a moment to stop and look into my eyes I want to know if you now realize you are my demise

My heart breaks in two Everytime I picture you My heart begins to ache Every morning when I wake The thought of you not here Is my biggest fear Living my worst nightmare Is more than I can bare The thought of you coming home Is all that keeps me strong I know in the past things weren't always right But I am not ready to give up the fight I ask God everyday To help me find a way To live through this pain And for one more day To keep me sane I love you with all of my heart Eventhough we are apart I live my life for you I know you think about me, too I think of you every day and every night Holding our memories tight Wanting you to be near I just wish you could hear Every beat my heart makes I'll do whatever it takes Hoping you'll walk through the door Wanting you to leave no more I did the best that I knew But, really, I didn't have a clue Please know in your heart I never wanted us apart Your return is just a dream Or at least it seems You are a gift from above My one true love Learning from my errors in the past Hoping they will not last

I sit here on the stairs Waiting for someone who cares A life left unlived Nothing more to give Sit & wait by the door Waiting for my savior To come & take me to the light One that shines so bright Take me away from the pain As I slowly go insane Nothing seems to go right All i do is fight An eternal battle inside And every night I cry Wishing you were here Wishing you were near Wondering what went wrong Trying to remain strong Living my life day to day Wondering when we went our separate ways A lifetime seems to have passed It all went way to fast Trying to move on All the memories now gone Slowly disappearing into the night Holding on tight Waiting for you to realize Waiting for you to here my cries The tears run down my cheek As I try to speak Not able to mutter a sound Feeling as if I drowned Trying to gasp for a breath As I think of my death Nothing more to do All I know is that I love you Nothing more to say Except if you don't want me, then just walk away